Chapter 45 Push

• It didn’t take long for my eyes to look at them. I quickly closed the curtain then locked the door then lay down on the bed. I don’t think I can bear to see Hugo now as he lay next to me here in bed. Even though I knew I felt sorry for Soleil I couldn’t help but be jealous. I shouldn’t have compared myself to her, but my heart couldn’t help but wish I was just her.
• The night accompanied me with my already painful sob. It became my music to a screaming heart. It became the story buddy of my tears. I feel like I am slowly getting used to it, being my friend whenever my heart hurts. Unbeknownst to me, I had fallen asleep by crying so much. Maybe this is how it is when the heart is heavy.
• I woke up in high sunlight. But as I opened my eyes, I wasn’t sure if it was swollen because of the extreme pain and I felt like I was having a hard time awakening. I was about to walk to the mirror when suddenly there was a knock on the door. I stared at it first because I thought it was going to stop, but it still didn’t end with the knocking until little by little I heard Hugo’s voice again.