Chapter 73 Save Jane

• [KHALI]
• My life is like a bus trip. There were so many routes and stops, and between those stops, I met new people, those people that I thought would stay permanently in my life. They never stayed, though. Either they abandoned me, or I was forced to abandon them. Another heartbreaking, dull, pointless halt, followed by another. I often wonder when I'll arrive at my final destination. When am I going to quit looking for folks and hoping they'll stick with me?
• But then it dawned on me that perhaps I am the only one who can decide when I should quit. When I finally found the fulfillment I'd been searching for all these years. But how can I do that, when every time I get to decide who should I spend my final stop with, I started to get scared. I cowered and pushed them away. I drew a line between us. For a brief period, I realized that I was the one shoving them away because of the horrible trauma Carmine Crea had inflicted on me. I turned into a jerk, inventing ridiculous excuses to get away. I don't deserve any of them, and they certainly don't deserve me.