Chapter 58

• It's been about two weeks since I became the new Beta female and though the Alpha hasn't requested my audience yet, I've waited in anticipation. I wonder what being in an official meeting feels like, especially since I'll be expected to contribute and everyone's eyes will be on me. The thought gives me jitters again but I cast it aside. I'm totally ready for this and I'll give it my all. It's a responsibility I'm ready to accept.
• I've been attending therapy for almost two weeks now and though I can't say it's been fun having to remember and acknowledge the past, I can say it's been very uplifting. It's really been less than two weeks but I feel like a completely different person. I've acknowledged that I didn't make a mistake, being born mute or not transforming when I was supposed to wasn't my doing, it wasn't my mistake and I didn't deserve to be treated the way I was. I've accepted that Zephyr was the one who made a mistake and he had no right to accuse and abuse me no matter what. I've come to accept my past and everything it holds and doing that has given me a chance to get a grasp on myself. To finally build up desires and expectations. I feel like I can finally dream again, I'm finally free and the feeling is the best in the world. Most importantly, the flashbacks and the nightmares are fading away. I'm building up my self confidence and though I'm not quite there yet, I know I'll be the independent woman I want to be in the near future.
• I rock Nevaeh in my arms one final time, glad that she's finally asleep. I carefully place her in her crib and drop on my bed exhausted. Last night she'd been a handful and this is honestly the first time she's ever troubled me.