Chapter 32 The feeling

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• Seeing Nolan talk to the rest and not me, made me feel left out. I felt left alone. Most of the time, I had to stay indoors, just to avoid seeing him. And as much as the rest tried to talk to me, it wasn't like when Nolan and I talk. I knew in the past we were both comfortable not talking to each other. I could go days, weeks, and even months and not talk to him. I could sit in a room with him and not feel his presence. But now, a day without talking to him made me feel so bad. I feel empty. I had thought telling the ruthless alpha I love him will help me get over the little feeling I was beginning to have for Nolan. Yes, I feel a thing a small. Though the feeling is still little and hasn't been confirmed yet. I was afraid the more time I spend in the fire pack will only wake up the feeling I had been trying so hard to kill. Then I had to think about the ruthless alpha too. I was very sure I loved him but was so confused about, why I loved him and still have a little feeling for Nolan. So when I had the opportunity to tell my feeling to the ruthless alpha, I told him.
• Telling him, I had thought everything will return to normal. I won't have to think or worry about Nolan. I never thought he would avoid me for any reason. None I could think of. At first, I thought it was one of our usual fights. The one that lasts for a week or two. But as hours changed to days, and days to a month. I realized he was serious. He was very serious about avoiding me. I couldn't bear it anymore. I couldn't bear seeing him talk to others and not me. I couldn't think of the ruthless alpha as I always do. I stopped daydreaming about him. I spent most of my time thinking about Nolan. And the more I thought about him, the more the feeling I thought I had killed kept growing. I kept trying to hold myself back. I tried to keep away from them. But not for long. I called my mom and told her what was going on. She was happy to hear I was beginning to develop feelings for my mate but was disappointed we kept having a right. She told me to settle out the difference. That was the reason I came to Nolan, to beg him. He was surprised to see me beg him. He couldn't hide his surprise. I was so happy when he said he had forgiven me.