Chapter 142 Cleo

• I left Finn with a strange emptiness within my heart. I did not know how to begin to explain the way I was feeling. Our walk after we had spoken had been a little awkward to say the least. He had all but let me go. Was there anything to say after that? Finn would forever hold a precious place within my heart. Of course he would, but I had needed my space, and I had made my excuses to head home. I had hidden in my room since returning home. Avoiding everyone that I could. I need to be alone.
• Once home, I went over that conversation so many times within my head. He seemed to be telling me he and I were never meant to be. Athing I had never imagined Finn telling me. We knew we were never fated, but Finn had never been phased by that. So for him to suddenly be so opposed to the thought of the two of us seemed bizarre. Unlike him. Yet, I felt oddly calm about it. However, there was a heaviness that remained above me. I could not decide if that was because the one guy I was closer to than anyone... the one guy I thought would always be there for me to fall back upon had now given up on me, or if it was simply because I was not able to accept that my fated mate did not want me. Because, deny it as I may, it hurts.
• I had lied to Landon so many times and said it was okay. That I understood. That I would be okay. But, in truth, I felt like I was crumbling. My wolf hated the fact he was resisting the bond. And she hated me for not putting up more of a fight for my mate. Anyone would say I should fight for him if they knew, I was sure of it. But, I did not want to make a fool of myself for a man that did not want me. I had seen the pain that had caused Jorge fighting for someone who did not want him. I was not about to put myself through that for Landon. Not when he had made his feelings clear so quickly after realizing I was fated to him.