Chapter 8 (Thankful For Them)

• After minutes of crying, I turned my head and saw a cup of tea and a samosa in a paper plate behind me. As usual, someone has kept it in here for me.
• I don’t know who is doing this but I am thankful for them, because of the headache I got from crying it is treated right with this tea.
• I wanted to see that person who is doing this for me, but even today I forgot to find, since I was totally drowned in thoughts of Harry just like every other day.
• I smiled seeing that tea and samosa, I finished them with a grateful heart and blessing that person in my heart. Deep inside I also felt embarrassed that person encounters my weakness.
• I washed my face and went to attended the class, as I entered the class, I noticed it has already begun. There Shiva Sir was taking class, I asked his permission to enter and he gave me a stern warning of not to come late again before he allowed me to enter the class.
• I nodded my head moved to my seat, I didn’t lift my head and started listening his class. Middle of the class, he stopped and called my name.
• I lifted my eyes and saw him with an irritated look, I looked at him with a questioning look on my face.
• “Look here Miss...” he looked lost not knowing my name,
• “I’m Ivy, Sir” I said and he nodded his head.
• “Ivy, if you are not interested in attending the class better leave the class.”
• “What? Sir, when did I tell you that I’m not interested?”
• “first, you are late to class and now I can see you are not listening” he pointed out and I sighed.
• “Sir, you can question me from anything you have taught so far. I just didn’t feel like lifting my head, So I kept my head down but that doesn’t mean, I’m not listening or not interested” I said and he gritted his teeth.
• “Oh, so you talk back with your professor? Ok, then answer my questions” saying he started to shoot some questions at me suddenly.
• I did not panic but kept answering all his questions, he looked at me lifted his eyebrows in amusement but he didn’t seem to like the fact that I was attentive.
• “Sit properly and listen to the class” saying he turned to the other side of class to continue lecturing. I sighed and sat lifting my head.
• And throughout the class, I felt like this is not going to end and I’m surely going to be troubled in his upcoming classes.
• Yea, sure someone should be there to taunt us wherever we go right? And I guess he is also one of it for me.
• A week later,
• After the class, I went straight to the library to get a book to use it as a reference for one of the assignments given.
• Anika didn’t follow me as she was hungry and wanted the evening snacks, so she went back to the hostel hurriedly.
• The library was really huge and had so many books stacked with so many genres. I started to search for the book from shelf one till the last shelf that was at the back.
• I found the book and also a novel that attracted me, I just wanted to give it a reading. Just one or two pages but slowly I sat down on the ground and started reading.
• I was totally engrossed in it, that I didn’t even check the time. Suddenly I felt someone touch my shoulder and I lifted my head that was kept down reading and met those eyes.
• His brown eyes interlocked with mine, I found myself starring at him like attracted to his eyes. But it is the truth, his eyes are mesmerizing, after that first day, today is the second time I’m seeing him this close.
• He is handsome that is for sure, is that why those girls are going behind him every day? His eyes twinkled for several seconds. I started studying his facial structure.
• Somewhere in my mind, I suddenly thought how it will feel like if those sharp noses of his trace my neck and it goes down below.
• And those thin lips touch mine, I don’t know why I thought like that. But just by those thoughts, I felt hot and my heart raced, I started chewing my lower lip.
• He cleared his throat and I jerked out of my thoughts. I should blame that novel stirring some weird thoughts inside me but it didn’t contain any erotic scenes my subconscious hinted me.
• I don’t know what he must have thought of me staring at him like I’m ready to swallow him. He gulped and signalled me to get up, I quickly nodded my head.
• When I tried to get up my legs are numb and I staggered. I quickly grabbed his shirt when I was about to fall down. But it didn’t help me and I fell down by dragging him along with me.
• I was lying down with him on my top, not only his body but his lips are on mine and his hand was under my head protecting me.
• I don’t know how he put his hand behind my head. Our eyes widened in shock we were like that for few seconds with me blinking several times in shock.
• I can smell the sweet citrus smell of his perfume and his hot breath made my heart to race fast.
• He immediately lifted his head and tried to get up from the place after he recovered his senses. And I did the same, after he stood up.
• He quickly turned his back and stood. I don’t know what to say but it’s not his mistake whereas I’m the one who caused it and so I thought I should apologise.
• “I’m sorry, I’m sorry for what just happened. You.. you probably should get back to the hostel earlier. It’s late and I have to lock the library.” He apologized hurriedly before I could apologise and walked away quickly not even sparing a glance at me, leaving me dumbfounded and in shock.
• I stood there with a hurt look I don’t know why I felt hurt. Why? Is it because he apologised and he didn’t let me or for something like that he didn’t want to happen?
• But why would that affect me? I should be glad he did it but I feel sad and hurt. With a dejected heart, I stepped out of the library.
• What is this feeling that just arose inside me?