Chapter 164

• Everything was a blur as you grabbed my hair. I wanted to grab on to you so you would save me, but, the pain made me grab your hand so you would release my hair. Then you pushed me onto the sandbar and now the chilly air paralyzed me. All I could do was watch as you built the fire and warmth slowly returned to me.
• Then you ordered me out of my clothes and I had another flashback and I wasn't going to obey you. Then you yelled at me and I knew if I didn't take off my clothes, you would rip them off me...and then rape me...and I knew I had no choice...so I sat there paralyzed... waiting for you to dominate and abuse me...then I sat huddling as you approached and began stripping...and then you sat down and finally began to warm yourself.
• Each second gave me new hope that I would be okay and then I had a moment of serendipity when I realized you were you and not my monster from the past. I started to feel ashamed of everything I projected on you and I started crying and you came over to me naked. You sat right next to me and cradled me in your arms and I felt protected.