Chapter 5 His Present

• I do not have a car of my own but I have little savings to get one someday. So I tell my parents to drop me off for the celebration in school. I should have my car before gaining admission into a university. Private University is expensive, so my parents and I have plans for me to gain admission into a federal University because it's way cheaper and I will be able to save more for a new vehicle and I will still live with my parents at home.
• I do not mind living with my parents during my college years. Why because my parents gives me freedom to go out, I feel lucky to have them as my parents. I have good relationship with them, they're kind. They believe I am well behaved that I will not get into trouble.
• Apart from a few times I have little wrong like using fake Identification cards, lying to my parents that I am going to my friend's house, instead I go to clubs but apart from these adventures my life has been quite ordinary. I do not take much alcohol, I hate the smell of cigarettes so I do not smoke neither do I do drugs- though I nearly tried marijuana at a clubs two years ago. But thank goodness.
• When we arrive at the location, I found my friend Deborah. We join the line for the graduate celebration, waiting patiently for our names to be called. It is a beautiful day - happy faces, perfect weather. Not too hot nor cold just a cool weather.
• "Leigh Deborah", I heard my friend name called before I was called because my surname start with 'P' and hers is 'L'. We are 150 people graduating today. That is one of the benefits of living in a rural areas. Education is not expensive.
• With a smile, I went to collect my certificate from the school administrator, I look into the crowds in search of my parents, seeing them, and I wave to them. Seeing the smile on their faces, I know they are proud of their daughter.
• The administrator brought out her hand to shake but instead, I hug her and thank her. She has been a good administrator to me. I went back to my seat.
• At that instant, I see Patrick again, he came for my graduation party.
• I became mute. I could not turn my head.
• I can feel from a distance he is watching me. That means he have been watching all my moves. He is sits at the extreme.
• My legs are heavy to move but I manage to walk down from the stage without slipping off to were my parents sits. While sitting close to my parents, I try to compost myself, making sure they did not notice my state.
• Oh my God oh my God, why is Patrick here? Why me? I try to breathe but I can not. You need to calm down, I tell myself. Maybe he came to celebrate someone, a close relative. But why is he staring at me like I took something from him?
• I think he is here for me, not for someone else.
• From the way he touched me in the clubhouse, I know he is not yet done with me, he is here to finish up.
• Is he here to hurt me or he want me as his sex slave?
• My legs trembling at the thought of him hurting me.
• I am afraid.
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• I search for him after the ceremony, I can not find him. Thank goodness, he is no more here. Debbie drove us with her car to Raymond's house. I can see Debbie and Sandra are very happy and excited about graduating from high school through the way they are talking.
• I would have join them in the conversation but I can not, I don't feel like. All I could think about is Patrick so I choose to just listen to them chattering about life after high school. I don't know why I have not told Debbie about my encountered with Patrick in the party. I know she is worry about why I am not lively today, I told her I am not feeling too well and I will love to be lying in bed at home.
• Telling her is not a problem I do not have issue telling her everything about Patrick but how to tell her is the problem. Maybe it is because Patrick made me feel somehow I can not explain. I do not think she will comprehend how Patrick made me feel - fear.
• After the incident at the club, I do not trust myself again.