Chapter 4 Graduation Ceremony
- He nods and says, "Okay." As if he just proved something right to me. He take up his right hand and gently place it on my face. His. Index finger touch my lips like he is preparing to kiss my lips.
- I am very shocked to say anything or move, I am just looking at him. No one has ever lay his hands on me without taking permission from me. His hands on me freely like I am a sex slave or I belong to him. I start to feel cold and hot together and fear from nowhere came upon me. You can imagine, he did not ask if he could lay his hands on me or if it's okay to touch a lady without her permission. He just did it like my body belongs to him.
- With fear on my face, I inhale quickly and step backward. "It is past time, I am leaving now," I whisper.
- He smile and watch me with a face I can not read, "Okay."
- I know he is just allowing me to leave, and I feel strangely thankful - because I know he could have done something else like hurt me here in the club or he would have dragged me out the club and just rape me.
- He seems to be the most dangerous person I have met.
- I quickly went into the crowd to find Deborah. My hands are shaking and my heart is beating out of fear.
- Debbie was flirting with some guys, I ask her to take me home immediately.
- As we are stepping out of the club, I turn over and see him looking at me.
- I am Frighten by the way he look at me, it seems scary.
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- Four weeks passed quickly. I am now eighteen years old, prepare for my final exams, have fun with my close friends Deborah and Sandra, go out with my friends to watch Raymond play volleyball and make preparation for my college convocation.
- I try not to remember what happened at the party. Because when I think of it, I feel hopeless, I overreacted, like I ran away when I should have stay to challenge him. Why did I do what I did? I should not have run away, should have face him. Anyways, he did not really touched me.
- I try to understand but I don't know why I acted that way. I was already turned on by his touch and by him but I was also really scared. Scared of what, I don't know.
- Now, I do not sleep well at night. Usually I dream of Raymond but now I see Patrick in my dream having crazy and wild sex with me, doing things to me that I can not help myself. I see myself pin to a spot. When I wake up, I do not feel like myself- uncomfortable.
- Many a time, I feel like I am going insane and I hate the feeling.
- I forced myself to think of something else just to put the disturbing worries aside.
- Today I am graduating from college, I am so happy and thankful to God. Let me focus on getting dressed instead of thinking of the incident that happened in the club. My friends Debbie, Sandra and I have setup after our graduation. My crush Raymond is having after graduate celebration in his house. I think, it will be the best time for Raymond to get to know me better, I will try my best to flirt with him and impress him.
- For my graduation party, I am wearing a red sexy gown underneath my green graduation gown. I love simple wears, and yes it's my perfect size. The gown brought out my big boobs and the size of my hips. As a short lady, I need added height so I am wearing three- inch pencil heels.