Chapter 35

• Jayden
• Sitting on the sofa, I absentmindedly watch the program on the television. I ordered a pizza more than half an hour ago, and the delivery guy hasn't shown up yet. My roommates haven't returned, and there's been nothing in the fridge for almost three days. I was supposed to go grocery shopping, but now I'm already in sweatpants, looking disheveled and tempted to spend the night on the couch. This routine is exhausting. I've been sleeping poorly for several weeks now, and after spending so many late nights out, it's hard to get back into a rhythm, especially with Ambre clouding my mind every night. Someday I would have to find out why the only person you want to avoid at all costs is the one you can always see.
• The cafeteria was just a moment like any other, except it was the one where I gave in and talked to her. I should never have done that, nor should I have sent her a message that she did not respond to. It's been over ten days since classes resumed. Ten. And I don't think I've had a single day off, because I've been seeing Ambre all the time. With her friends, with my brother, with people I didn't know. I fought hard not to see her, promising myself that my weakness in the cafeteria wouldn't happen again. I was captivated by her smile as she walked in, by her scent as she passed me in line without noticing me. She doesn't see me anymore.