Chapter 49

• Paula is watching me silently as I take the test stick from her and proceeded to the bathroom. The beat of my heart is so loud I can feel it slipping through everywhere
• Getting to the bathroom I first settle down on the toilet seat, unpacking the test kit. I just stare at it without even seeing anything. Oh God no matter what happens let this not be positive
• I search through the instructions and it says I should pee on the stick and wait for five minutes