Chapter 7

• It was all over.
• The hot moments were over. I wondered to myself if I was sorry for what I had done but I did not feel any remorse.
• I did not regret anything. I did not regret that I gave myself to him again. Because the truth was, he was still the one.
• Zeus owned me still.
• I did not regret it but my conscience still bothers me.
• I looked at Zeus. He was still beside me, naked. We were both naked.
• I wrapped the blanket on my body to cover my nakedness. I sighed before I uttered a word.
• "This isn't right, Zeus. It's all a sin ... You're getting married." My chest tightened with every word I uttered. I sobbed softly to relieve the pain in my chest.
• Zeus did not even react. He just stared at the ceiling in amazement.
• I didn't care what Zeus thought of me. I knew we had done something wrong because I gave up. I am at fault too.
• Moments later he got out of bed. He picked up his clothes that were scattered around the room. He put it on and stared at me. His forehead furrowed.
• "I never thought, you're that easy Sofia. I never thought, you will give it to me right away." He stared at me as he said those words. I blinked a few times at what I heard. I was shocked by what he said.
• How could he trick me like this?
• He used me to prove something.
• Zeus' words were like daggers. I couldn't help myself but cry. I sobbed like a baby while I was looking at him. He was looking at me too.
• I could not even see the remorse on his face at what he said to me. His face was stoic. And, it hurts me more.
• I stared at his eyes. Those eyes that I used to adore before. It didn't look at me the way it did before. When he looked at me then, his eyes were shining. It was as if I was the only woman he could see. But now, it is gone.
• Maybe I was just dreaming a while ago. I thought, I saw it again. When we made love, I thought My Zeus came back. But I was still wrong.
• I still hoped.
• "How could you, Zeus?" I whispered.
• Even if, I could hardly hear those words from my mouth I still managed to say it. I am hurting. I was hurt because of what he did to me.
• I am really nothing to him anymore. I was just a fool to believed that he still care.
• The realization pained me more. I should have known that from the beginning. But, I am still fucked up.
• I listwned to my heart again.
• I implemented my stupidity again.
• I sobbed silently when he spoke. I was even more hurt by the words he uttered for me. Especially, I feltl pity for myself.
• Why am I stupid?
• "Fucking whore, Sofia. Is my dad can't satisfy you in bed? So give it to me right away?" he smiled at me. He sneered at me too. "You don't matter to me anymore ... You're just a low class step-mother to me," he said to me with emphasis.
• I bowed.
• I was just like a whore to him. That was how little he thinks of me.
• I just felt more stupid. I just felt more pitiful this time.
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• "Forget what happened."
• Zeus' last words before I left my room. He had been gone for a long time. I was also an idiot for a long time before I decided to get dressed. I also fixed myself.
• Maybe I should just forget what happened between us today. He clearly said it. It didn't matter to him. So, that was just what I'm going to do.
• 'I wish everything was that easy'
• I was shaken. How could I embrace the present if I am still holding on to my past? How could I forget the past if those memories were what I want in my present?
• I gasped. What was happening to me was insane. My life was so chaotic.
• My thoughts were cut short when Fausto entered my room. He looked angry again. I was suddenly nervous.
• Did he knew anything that happened earlier?
• Fausto approached me and kissed me properly but I avoided my face. I still hated him. The person I thought I could call to be a father and protect me was what made me miserable now. The cause of why my life was in hell.
• He has no heart.
• "Tssk! Wear something presentable, Sofia. Someone will visit me today. My sister Myla will also visit," he said irritably to me.
• I nodded. I didn't want to answer him anymore. My mind was more focused on one thing. Sister Myla. That meant I could see them. I haven't seen them in a long time.
• "Are they coming too?" I asked Fausto. He just nodded at me and stared at me sharply. I knew immediately what he meant.
• "Don't you dare come near the kids, Sofia. Don't add my anger at you," he threatened me once then leaving my room.
• I followed his pace as he closed the door of my room. Fausto added weight to my chest again.
• Just like that, my heart tore apart. Just like that, he hurted me again.
• I hated Fausto. I just hated him to the core.
• How ironic. I couldn't even hold my own kids. How painful I get from being away from them. I missed them everyday. How unfair life was for me.
• How long had I been like this? How long would I have to put up with Fausto just to see my children?
• Growing up, I never thought that I would be like my mom. But I surpassed her in what happened to me. I said before, I would take care of and love my children. But I am here now, I couldn't do any thing. I am trapped in hell. Fuck this life of mine.
• I cried because of the excruciating pain I felt. How many times have I cried today? How many more tears do I have to shed to just numb my heart? But, who am I fooling?
• I smiled bitterly. I wiped away the tears that had been streaming down my cheeks.
• If only all the pain could go away. If only, I could leave and live quietly with my children, far from this chaotic world I would do.
• If only. . .
• I hope it was possible.
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• I helped the helpers set up the harden table. It was said that the party will be held there later. It was afternoon, and everyone was in a hurry. Even Mother Belen was in charge of the kitchen.
• I knew this was not just a party. Fausto has many ready meals.
• They also used the elegant utensils.
• I looked up when I noticed that someone was staring at me. And there, I found Zeus. Standing proudly at the terrace, eyeing me intently. It was as if he was embracing everything in my whole being. He did not even budge when I looked at him too.
• "Excuse me Ma'am, we will put a plate," said Ate El. One of the maids in the mansion.
• I nodded and stopped myself looking at Zeus. I gave her the plates and I turned to Zeus again. He was still there, watching me. He raised one eyebrow while his two hands rested on the baluster. He was still staring at me. He stared at me like he still made me nervous.
• I frowned.
• Why would he act like this? The last time I checked he said, I didn't matter to him. And now, he was acting weird.
• We ended up fixing everything. Everything was ready for the coming guests. When a car entered our premises I went back inside the house. I needed to fix myself.
• The car was familiar. I knew immediately who Fausto with, Aria Guererro. My old friend. My enemy.
• I should have listened to my instinct a long time ago. I would never have dared someone I considered a friend. My life would never have been miserable.
• I heard another vehicle coming in. I smiled. I'm sure these were Ate Myla. I hurried up the stairs. I have to hurry. I wanted to see my children.
• Hope enveloped my whole being. The only consolation to my unending tears for today were my kids.
• My kids. I may be away from them but I loved them. Even if their father envy me, I didn't care.
• An image of a man popped up in my head.
• 'Zeus'
• Yes.
• Zeus was the father of my kids.