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Chapter 8

  • (Flashback)
  • I was an idiot for a few minutes. I am still looking out the window of Zeus' car. I'm confused. Until now I still did not understand why he kissed me.
  • I turned to him and looked at him intently. He was just seriously driving. His forehead also wrinkled with a sigh. Perhaps he was thinking about what had happened to us earlier.
  • What happened to me was embarrassing because of Jerry. I was even more bothered with myself. I wanted to ask him why he did that. Why did he kiss me but I did not have the courage.
  • I sighed. Eventually, I still gave up on the silence.
  • "I'm sorry Zeus. I shouldn't be with Jerry anymore," I told him.
  • I even nodded and just bowed. I knew it was my fault too.
  • He just glanced at me and ignored me. He just kept driving as if he hadn't even heard what I said.
  • Annoying.
  • I was even more annoyed because I could not forget his kiss. Those soft and luscious lips that nibbled my lips a while ago, it brought some unexplainable feelings for me.
  • It hit directly to my heart.
  • It was really true that kisses from someone special to you would bring the most magical feelings for you.
  • There were people who really come into our lives to change its course.
  • And for me, it was Zeus.
  • He made my heart flutter. He made my senses enable. I couldn't think straight whenever he was around.
  • And yes. I liked him.
  • Maybe for him the kiss didn't matter. Maybe it was just a spur of a moment thing. Maybe he just felt sorry for me. But for me, it was something. Something beautiful that I didn't want to vanish sooner.
  • I suddenly thought of my realization. Who wouldn't love him?For almost everyday that we've spent together, he always told me that he doesn't wanted to see me cry. That he wanted to see me everyday smiling.
  • But I didn't want to assume things.
  • Many die of delusion. Many have also shed tears because of that.
  • 'Maybe so' I thought.
  • Thinking of it made my heart ache. Why was that? Why do I seemed unwilling to think of the possibility? Did I expected something from him?
  • Aside from being arrogant and hot-tempered Zeus was thoughtful. Even though he was rude sometimes I knew he was kind to me.
  • Things were new to me. Things I did not have.
  • I shook my head and smiled bitterly. Why do I think these things?
  • A few more minutes passed as he stopped the car outside the mansion gate. I did not immediately notice that we had arrived because of the thought.
  • I looked at him again. He was calm I think. A while ago, he was pissed.
  • I held his hand while holding the steering wheel of the car. He blinked, and so did I.
  • Electricity.
  • It was always like this whenever I touched him. Something unusual.
  • We looked at each other. No one wanted to break the silence. When Zeus and I were like this, I felt safe. I lose all my fears. It was as if we had a world of our own.
  • Zeus and me, and no one else matter.
  • He snatched his hand from my grasp. He moved closer to me. I did not blink. I wanted to see everything he does. I wanted to see all his reactions.
  • He cupped my face again. He first looked my eyes down at my lips. He swallowed a few times. He was uncertain of what he would do.
  • "You should've not gone with him, Doll ... You should've not made me scared like that."
  • I look at his eyes even more. It said a lot of emotions I couldn't even name. We were the same, he was also confused.
  • "Sorry." I have nothing to say to him but sorry. He was angry and I knew he was just suppressing himself.
  • "I'm scared when you leave with him. I was there ... I'm just looking at you get in his car."
  • "Are you mad at me?" I asked him.
  • "I'm not mad. I'm jealous."
  • I was surprised by what he said. I turned to look at him but he could not look at me directly. I also saw his face blush.
  • "Why?" I whispered. I could barely hear my own voice.
  • He looked at me again once shaken. Then he stared at me intently. His kind of stare was debilitating. I made my legs wobbled.
  • "I'm jealous, because I like you!" he shrieked.
  • I was shaken. I could not believe what he said. I was in tears again. How come Zeus would like me more than friends? Impossible.
  • I walked away from him. I'm confused. How and why did he like me? But whether I shrugged the thoughts off, it still gave me some hint of happiness.
  • It was hard to believe but I'm happy.
  • I looked outside the car's window. I calmed myself down. I didn't want him to see me cry. I didn't want him to know that he was the reason why I'm crying.
  • How ironic. There were things you really wanted to but you have to resist.
  • It was as scary as hoping. Maybe in the end he was just playing with me.
  • Maybe in the end he would just make me cry.
  • "If you're just saying this because I like you. Please back off, Zeus!"
  • My eyes widened. I also covered my mouth. It looked like I even ruined myself. I really am a fool.
  • "Look at me."
  • I turned to him. He had a playful smile on his face. He touched his chin and stared at me intently.
  • "So you like me, huh?"
  • I bowed. My cheeks were red with shame. I wanted to continue to scolded myself. Sometimes I also have no brakes when speaking. I was caught in my own mouth.
  • "It doesn't matter," I answered.
  • "Well it matters to me because I like you too," he said seriously.
  • "Court me first," I dared.
  • "What?" he frowned.
  • "Court me!" I said once the door opened and ran out. I didn't care if I no longer have poise. I was still out of breath after stopped running. I still hold my knee and quickly absorb the air.
  • I looked around where Zeus had parked the car.
  • I just needed to stay away from there. I just needed to stay away from him. Because even if I didn't admit it in myself, his presence affects me. His confession confused me.
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  • The next day I woke up early. What Zeus told me did not put me to sleep. It was annoying that no matter how hard I tried to close my eyes, I cpuld still see his serious face.
  • I have organized myself and am ready to go to school. I said goodbye to Mother Belen first and I quickly went to the car that always took me.
  • I was even happier when I opened the car door. But all my smiles were wiped out when Zeus was not the one I could see inside.
  • "Manong Ambo, where is Zeus?" I asked Manong.
  • He turned to me and answered. He even scratched his head as if embarrassed.
  • "I went there earlier. He said he was tired."
  • I just nodded to Manong. I was a little hurt when he said Zeus was tired. Maybe because he was the one who picked me up made made him tired. Or because of what happened yesterday.
  • Either way, I was still sad. Did I mention, I couldn't believe it. But I am not expected to hope. I would only get hurt in the end.
  • I was not at school all day. I also kicked Jerry earlier during my badtrip with him. I made sure I was hit hard when I could at least make up for what he was doing to me.
  • I frowned all day. Even when they look at me at school I didn't care. I would curse, because I wanted to. Do they care?
  • Until I got home, my face was still wrinkled. Zeus still didn't show up for me. So my head heated up even more.
  • I stopped walking inside the mansion with feet blocking my way. I knolew this was Zeus because there was no one else here in the mansion with a large feet like him.
  • I looked up at him. I frowned. What does this naughty man need from me?
  • "Why?" I spat him.
  • "I'm sorry I didn't drive you to school. I had an emergency in the city," he said. I was about to pass him when he grabbed my hand.
  • He pulled me over and took me somewhere. He held me very tightly. I fought but he was strong so I drifted to him. In the end he still defeated me.
  • "Are you mad?"
  • "Why would I be angry if you didn't take me to school, right? Because you're busy. Or whatever your reason, I don't care--"
  • Everything I said stopped when Zeus kissed me on the lips. My eyes widened at what he did. My nostrils also widened.
  • 'The nerve of this guy!'
  • When he got tired of kissing me he just let go of my lips. I gasped for breath then I widened my eyes at him.
  • "The only way to shut your mouth," he said to me with a smile.
  • I did not know what to do. I was confused by everything he showed me and even how he felt.
  • But only one kiss from him and every doubt was gone.
  • Just one kiss, and everything was back again.
  • "Can I kiss you more?" he pleaded. He was looking at me intently and I am with him too.
  • I nodded as an answer. I also like the feeling of his lips on my lips. It made me calm.
  • And, I didn't want to stop this anymore. I didn't want to keep this feeling anymore.
  • So, I just let it go.