Chapter 294 Tease

• It is all too easy to fall into step behind Shane. Living this fantasy is becoming a second skin and I can feel myself slipping into it eagerly. This reality is more fun than it should be. Letting him do the things he does to me should have been harder. His firm grip on my hips is too warm, too comforting, too consuming.
• I hold onto him tightly, and I wonder if it is so that I won’t fall or if it is because I want to hold onto him? My feet still haven’t returned to the ground from what he’d done to me in the pizzeria. My heart twists but also soars. I don’t know whether I should be this happy, or if I should be wracked with guilt.
• I don’t let myself question, wonder, or spiral. I push the guilt aside and swallow down my conscience. Tonight is not the night to wallow. I am going to be wild and reckless. Is this the place to let loose? No, probably not. Is this the best time? Absolutely not.