Chapter 47 Sailing Ship

• I learnt the hard way that hearing the truth is something we aren't prepared for. Now that I think of it, I wonder why I kept on pressurizing him to be open with me if it was something I wasn't going to be able to face? If it was something I was going to run off after hearing like I did? The truth about one's past, hits us in so many ways, and Ray's wasn't an exception.
• Probably, he was right about keeping his past away from me. He was probably downcasted after watching me run away like that. I myself was embarrassed, the way I acted was childish,and even when i wanted to blame myself.
• Ray really had a toxic childhood. It was so bad, I wanted to tell him to shut up but couldn't, I knew it was some kind of help to him, because he was sure to feel light-headed afterwards. When he told me how he'd met Raven and the whole shit with Tim, I couldn't resist hugging him. It wasn't a rehearsed speech, it was exactly like Raven had said it. He was everything but weak wasn't one of those things.