Chapter 62 Heartache

• There is a heavyweight on my chest as I climbed downstairs. After I put back Logan's phone, I have decided to grab a drink that can help me erase the pain my curiosity cause me. When I reached the kitchen, I instantly tugged out a can of beer from the refrigerator and sat on the stool, and then opened it. Bitterness conquered my mouth when I started to drink it until I only find it empty so I grabbed another can again. Hopefully, these may soothe the pain… that this can help me or at least set aside the heavy feeling I have right now.
• Clutching my chest, right where my heart lies beneath, I walked back upstairs before Logan may notice that I am not laying beside him. But because of what happened, in my case now… how can I still endure sleeping beside him? How can I endure those hugs and kisses from him knowing that it all says the same meaning? He didn't love me, nor like me… it was still her and she will forever be. And even though how much I dream to be in Logan's heart, in the end, I wouldn't replace Ynez.
• When I reached my room, it took me minutes before I could decide to jump on the bed and lay beside him. I made sure that there was enough space between us, unlike those past few nights where we slept together with almost no space in between. Controlling my heavy breath, I stared at Logan who's now peacefully sleeping, and then my eyes then landed on his phone I'd been holding in the bathroom earlier.