Chapter 6 Night Of Mistakes 2

• It was supposed to be my surprise but I was the one who got a surprise from him when I finally arrived at his unit. Everything seems normal that night. The hallway to his unit was clear, engulfed by tranquility. All I could that time is the click sounds coming from my six inches high heels as well as my breathing which is rough because of sudden excitement and nervousness. The smile on my face that I am wearing while I am still at home didn't fade not when I came in silently to his unit.
• I could still remember how the bottle of wine I was holding dropped to the floor, making it break into pieces as I felt how my heart also shattered into tiny pieces while I am looking at him. While I am tearfully witnessing his sin together with a blonde hair coquette. I could still remember how the bold sound coming from their body as the man whom I thought my prince charming is pumping from behind.
• Seconds passed and the way how Axel and the woman reach their climax completely destroyed me. Not just as Axel's girlfriend but as a woman who has pride. But because of what they did, it felts like my pride sank into the deepest part of nowhere. When I finally have the chance to confront them, Axel's words slapped me so hard. Giving a bruised on my whole being that seems so hard to get healed with.
• “Accept the consequence of your choice, Alice. What you have seen is nothing but all your fault. If you just give me what I asked to you that night, then this will never happen to us. You choose to be untouched until our wedding day but heck! That's too far from now! I can't wait anymore. God knows how much I tried to be faithful in our relationship but this is too much… six years of waiting is too much. I'm still a man, with needs that should be fulfilled and it was you that was supposed to do the favor but what did you do? You don't even let me to touch you so don't blame me if I find another girl to warm my bed!”
• Those are the exact words he said that made me feel so useless. He's right… I am his girlfriend but yet, I can't warm his bed. The blame is on me… the fault is all mine.
• On the same night, I broke up with Axel, and with an unexplainable pain lies in my heart, I went to an unfamiliar place to me. A place where there are lots of drunk people inside, almost making out in every corner of the place. As I watched them, it seems like it was easy for them to do the hardest thing to me. For them, making out seems so easy… they seem unbothered.
• As I drank myself with bottles of liquors, I also felt how the pain subside and it was then completely faded when a man in his business suit appeared. Offering his company to me that I didn't hesitate to accept. We both drank that night at the bar counter. I still remember how he offered me a drive home before everything for me went vague. Too blurry to remember. All I can recall on what happened is the next morning when I woke up in a bed with the same man I drank within the bar.
• I lying on a bed next to him with no clothes under the thick mattress. And when I tried to move, I was immediately stopped by the soreness in between my thighs. But even though the pain makes me winced and cursed to hell, I forced myself to get up. Wrapping the mattress around my worn-out body. However, what I have done is a wrong move for my eyes popped out from their sockets as they landed on the naked body of the man. There were still traces of the sin we made. Those scratches in his back which I think I made hunt me even after I run away, leaving him still unconscious.
• “You did what?!” It was Helena who almost freaks out while we are inside a cafe, having a cup of warm coffee.
• I pulled her to sit down. “Can you please calm down?” I whispered hard.
• She brushed her curly hair with her fingers while shaking her head on me. “You broke up with Axel. You accidentally gave yourself to someone you don't even know. Yet you're here, asking me to calm down. Can you f*cking tell me how can I f*cking calm down, Alice? What have you down is not calming, you know.”
• I rolled my eyes before locking it to a slice of cheesecake in front of me. I took a spoonful amount of it and devoured its soothing taste.
• “I felt so stupid, Helena…” I trailed and just for a while, I felt the lid of my eyes water until a drop of tear rolled down to my cheeks. “I refused Axel when he asked me for sex but yet, I only give what he wants to unknown man. It feels like I cheat on him, Helena.” I sniffed.
• “Cheat?! You didn't cheat on him, Alice. Have you forgotten what you have said? You told me that you caught him having sex with another woman. So means, Axel is the one who cheated on your relationship. Don't blame yourself.”
• “Yeah, we're already on that. I saw him with another woman but my point here is what I have done. Helena, I have sex with a stranger. I don't even know that man, even his name!” I frustratedly reasoned out.
• Helena chuckled. “Let's just hope that there's nothing more happened to you, Alice.”
• My brows knotted. “What do you mean?” I asked, confused. But instead of answering me, she trailed me down until her eyes settled on my belly.
• At first, I didn't know what's the meaning behind that but after weeks, my life is bound to change. That night of mistakes changed my life forever.