Chapter 23 She Was Shot

ALEXANDER'S POV
I nodded and headed that way, I found that I couldn't enter just yet. I could see her and it froze me to my spot. She was lying on the bed motionless with several machines hooked up to her, including a breathing tube. The sight of her made my stomach turn so that damn emotional ball lodged itself back into my throat. Seeing her so helpless and beat up did things to me. Things I never thought I could feel as hot tears ran down my face.
Stepping into her room was suffocating. The machines were beeping and making all kinds of weird noises and it made me uncomfortable. But I pushed through and sat down next to her, taking her hand in mine. She was lifeless but still warm as I let out a breath I hadn't realize I was holding. Then the waterworks broke again as I laid my forehead down on her arm and just cried. "Please don't leave me. Not yet. I can't handle the thought of not having you in my life. I am so sorry for being such a fuck up. I will do better. I promise. Just please, please don't leave me yet." A sob escaped my lips as I felt her squeeze my hand, and I knew she heard me. Somehow she heard everything I just said. "Hey, son."