Chapter 52

All of a sudden I began to feel emotional and tears were building fast behind my eyelids. I try not to let them fall because I don't want Benedict to see me crying. I'm not crying because of him but I'm crying because of my past. I'm ashamed that if I let him in, he will hate me.
"I can't do this... These dates that you want from me I can't do it because I don't want to. I don't want you to. I don't want you to date me. I have so many things inside that you wouldn't wanna know and I would never wanna tell you. I have reasons why I have these walls, why I don't let anyone in and why I don't wanna be with anyone." I muffled, almost loosing my voice.
I shake my head, "I promised myself to pull away from you right after the photo shoot but here I am inside your home."