Chapter 20

• Ester, With you, my every ravage becomes memorable.
• “..-I hit you, I ridiculed you, treated you like trash but you were by my side and deep inside I knew you are the one who can save me from the darkness but I was scared and Henry's words echoed in my mind. But when you asked for a divorce, I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to apologize for my mistake and start thing anew with you, I began to desire you but Henry threatened me he will tell you everything about Grace but I cannot be away from you and I had no choice but to force you to be with me without showing how much I love you but slowly, I tried to change and show you how much I love you, what you mean to me but then he showed up. I had no choice but to break you apart.
• That day...before our anniversary. I was happy to start things anew with you. I was delighted to have a normal life with you but then.. Henry gave me two choices; Break your hopes.. or else he will tell you everything and since I was insecure about it... I broke you.. I never wanted this to happen.. I am so sorry to ruin the day you were looking forward to... and after that you made the right decision and left me. A pathetic guy who couldn't even protect and love properly.. but after you left my life fell apart.. I cannot live without you Ester. I love you so much. Please don't leave me ever again.. I know what happened is my fault because I am a coward but now please be at my side Ester... I will be the perfect guy you dream of. I will do whatever you say just be with me..." I buried my face in her neck more with my tears drenching her neck. I could feel her controlling herself to not cry but it was so hard for both of us. I held her shirt, not looking up as I whispered desperately, "Please take me out from this swamp. Please save me.." I begged her to take me out of this deadly life, from this unbearable heartbreak and show me light of guidance. I cannot take it anymore.