Chapter 38

• Emma adjusted her black facing cap as she dragged her luggage behind. She never thought the casual outfit she was wearing could be this comfortable. After having Ryan three years ago, her body size increased and she often felt wide. She almost hated her body but later appreciated it as one of the gifts that come with motherhood. She hasn't gone back to her former shape since then. Her fitting clothes became uncomfortable and her tummy would bulge out of a dress. The brown sport trousers and large black sweater she now wore made her feel light. Her body felt relaxed and all she had to do was carry it along. She doesn't have to struggle to feel comfortable after all she thought.
• The last time she was in an airport was about a year ago when she, Gideon and little Ryan went to Brazil for a family vocation. The vocation was quite eventful as they had fun and enjoyed it as a one big happy family. She had loved Brazil since then. Even though Gideon had promised to take them on international vocations twice a year, they only had it once since then. Gideon ever since had resolved to work and planning a vocation will alter his schedules. She also had Ryan to take care of then. She was planning for them to go to Hawaii. "There will be no more family vocations now Emma." She told herself.
• She sat on the vacant airport permanent seat awaiting the calling of the flight she had boarded. She rested her back on the luxurious chair and connected her ear pods to her phone. Music had seem to make her feel better lately. Sometimes, she would listen only to the solemn piano tunes playing from her phone. It was better than the tracks that made her feel guilty or miserable. She deleted the love songs for it mocked her;Gideon never really loved her. She thought. The lyrics from songs about heartbreak and death pierced her heart and reminded her so much of Ryan. Hence, she only listened to the piano, no lyrics, just an emotional sound that she somehow found soothing.