Chapter 28 Something Temporary

• Lizandra
• I could barely close my eyes all night, and I couldn't say I woke up. As a result of the terrible night of tossing and turning in bed, shedding rivers of tears, I was now feeling terrible. It's as if a tractor ran over my body, leaving me completely sore. Nothing gets resolved with tears, and I wish I wouldn't cry every time things get out of control. In other words, constantly. But it's impossible not to realize that I've become a big crybaby, weak, and now also a traitor.
• How could I have given in to Heitor's kisses when there are so many factors to consider? He doesn't like me; he made that clear. He doesn't trust me and believes I'm a big scammer, about to con his family. He's committed! A total absurdity on my part. But our morning encounter didn't help much, as even after spending the night blaming myself for everything, just being in the same environment as he shamefully affected me. During the years I dated Samuel, I never felt what Heitor evoked in me with just a glance.