Chapter 17 Matthew

• I guess being gay is more terrible...
• I feigned a smile lowering my head as the silence dawned on us.
• I was lost in my thoughts thinking how he might even react if I should confess how I felt about him or perhaps if he came to know I was gay he wouldn't think of me., I'm very sure he would be just as disappointed--- rather, I might lose him, including Billy whom I am coming to know to be my friend but I'm sure they'll just stay away from me when I'm out of my shells.