Chapter 190

• MOURNING
• How can things happen in such a flicker? It was just the other day that I was paddling in an ocean of pain and agony. At that time, I made a hasty decision that I thought was the best in my whole life. It seemed so; it felt like the most beautifully sane thing that had happened when I crossed paths with my knight in shining armor. Despite the simultaneousness of the predicaments that I faced after running away, he had my back. He was with me every single step. He became my solace, and soon enough, he pulled me out of the misery of betrayal and drew me into the wild world of immense pleasure and joy.
• I became extremely happier than I reckoned I would ever be, and I was standing at the beautiful open gate of a heavenly haven when suddenly the door got slammed to my face, and I am now pulled back to grief again. It was just four days ago when I returned here. Despite scorning myself for drawing Papa into a state of depression and his critical condition, I was hopeful that I would be able to exonerate myself when he got better. I had vouched to devote my all to him and make up for all the turmoil I had caused him in the past. I wanted us to be happy as a family, but now none of that will happen. It's over. This guilt will eat me forever.