Chapter 26 Seleste- After the Party

• After the party, I went home with my parents. I was emotionally done. I’m glad my parents did not try to talk to me. My parents are good that way. I know when to give me space to process. My parents and I went to our rooms as soon as we got back to the house. I wanted to go to sleep, but my mind kept going. I couldn’t stop thinking about what happened at the party and the future of the pack.
• I have that things happened the way that they did. I am worried about the pack. If the Elite warriors leave, the pack will be vulnerable. The protection around the pack is strong, but we have pack members that live away from the pack and they could become targets because they know the pack would not be able to respond right away. I need to talk to the warriors in the morning. I do not want them to leave the pack for me. We have worked much too hard to let this pack fall apart like that. I love they will stand for me the way they did, but the pack needs them more than I do.
• I don’t know how I feel about the way things ended with Trevor. I appreciate that he apologized, but it’s too little too late for me. I do forgive him, but I still don’t want him in my life. He was my mate. The one person who was supposed to love me unconditionally, yet he tried to destroy and break me. It’s hard to get past that. If I wasn’t a special wolf, I may not have survived this situation. I am blessed to be strong enough to overcome the pain of rejection, but it still hurts me emotionally. I always thought my mate and I would be happy together. I wanted to love my mate. I think if Trevor would have come around and apologized before things went as far as they did, I would have taken him back. He just wouldn’t stop trying to hurt me. Since we broke the bound with him, I am numb to him. He still makes me angry, but mostly, I feel nothing where he is concerned.