Chapter 1

• MARCUS'S POV
• How it all began.
• "Chelsea I'm sorry just try to understand I did all this because…" I couldn't let the words leave my mouth.
• Her eyes met mine as she gave me a disappointed look.
• "Because what Marcus?" She demanded tearfully. Making her cry was never my intention and it made me feel like a total jerk.
• "You ruined my life Marcus in your own fucked up away. You know when Max told me that you're the one who purposely got me fired I didn't want to believe him. Because I trusted you but I didn't know that you were a physco."
• I couldn't just let her walk away from me I knew that I had messed up big time and when all my shit got revealed. I had no proper explanation; it just made me look like a selfish greedy prick who wanted a woman all to himself.
• "Just let me explain myself I know it doesn't make sense Chelsea,but just try to hear me out."
• She crossed her arms over her chest.
• "I met a girl when I was a grumpy teenager. I wanted nothing to do with her because she had everything I wanted."
• "A loving family."
• "I was jealous of her because I had a messed up family that beat me up and abused me everyday."
• I could see the tears in her eyes but I couldn't stop now I had to be honest with her and tell how I got messed up.
• "She was my next door neighbor. She had bright red silky hair and green eyes that showed the depth of her kind heart. She was an angel and I was the devil Chelsea. She wanted to be my friend but I had rejected her because I couldn't bear my happy smile while I was suffering."
• "I was just a boy who was full of darkness, a darkness that I had gotten from my nasty father. I wished that she would just stay away from me and let me be in my dark place where I always tried to find comfort."
• "She was full of light that changed everyone when she smiled at you. It changed me but she was gone and I never heard from her ever again."
• "When I had decided to finally let her into my heart she walked away from me. I was broken,angry,sad and hurt. I had vowed to never be weak and be a victim of love."
• I swallowed hard grasping both of her cold hands in mine.
• "It took me a while to realize that I loved her even if I didn't want to admit it. I still love you Chelsea and I'll always love you."
• She stared at me with wide eyes, tears still rolling down her cheeks and I wiped them away.
• "Marcus you've destroyed everything between us and I don't know if I'll ever trust you again" she whispers softly.
• I nodded.
• "It's not enough…"
• "I know" I rasped quietly as I stroked her cheek gently. I had missed her terribly having so close to me again made me feel stronger.
• She pulled away from my arms.
• "You're getting married tomorrow Marcus to Tara and there's no us anymore you already lost the both of us" she whispered as she caressed her swollen pregnant bump.
• "This is goodbye and I wish all the best in your new life… I'm happy for you."
• "Chelsea it doesn't have to end like this I can call everything off with just a single call don't leave me."
• "Stay…" I whispered and crushed my lips on hers roughly tasting her sweetness.
• "Please" I pleaded once I pulled back.
• "Goodbye Marcus" she said softly and began to walk away.
• I had brought this upon myself and maybe I deserve to feel this kind of pain. I lost Chelsea and I would never see our child be born. For a while I just stood there helpless and lost. I didn't know what to do to get out of this situation overnight.
• She was the reason why I had changed for the better I couldn't lose her for the second time. It was my fault that she was gone. I had pushed her away and now she was gone. Her words still made my heart ache with pain. The pain of losing her sucked and I probably deserved it.
• Max ruined everything by telling her the truth.
• There goes my heart beating
• Cause you are the reason
• I'm losing my sleep
• Please come back now
• There goes my mind racing
• And you are the reason
• That I'm still breathing
• I'm hopeless now
• I'd climb every mountain
• And swim every ocean
• Just to be with you
• And fix what I've broken
• Oh, cause I need you to see
• That you are the reason
• There goes my hands shaking
• And you are the reason
• My heart keeps bleeding
• And I need you now
• If I could turn back the clock
• I'd make sure the light defeated the dark
• I'd spend every hour, of every day
• Keeping you safe
• I'd climb every mountain
• And swim every ocean
• Just to be with you
• And fix what I've broken
• Oh, cause I need you to see
• That you are the reason
• I don't wanna fight no more
• I don't wanna hide no more
• I don't wanna cry no more
• Come back I need you to hold me
• (You are the reason)
• Come a little closer now
• Just a little closer now
• Come a little closer
• I need you to hold me tonight
• I'd climb every mountain
• And swim every ocean
• Just to be with you
• And fix what I've broken
• Cause I need you to see
• That you are the reason
• Maybe I just had to accept that I had finally lost her for good this time. For the first time in my life I wish that I could turn back time and I could find a way to make her stay.
• When I met her for the first time my life was just black and grey and I was just a black haired boy who was broken. I never had the perfect loving family like every lucky kid out there.
• A girl with red hair had moved in next door with her family. She was an angel and I was the devil too dangerous that I would taint her pure aura.
• But as stubborn as she is she never wanted to stay away from me.
• Chelsea was the definition of practically perfect.
• When I was a kid I was always bullied at school and I was too scared to fight back and defend myself.
• "Hey weirdo I see that you've got some nice lunch and hand it over" ordered Sam as he stared at my homemade apple pie.
• My six year old self was frozen too weak to do anything by then I was always a wimp.
• But the voice inside kept saying fight back Marcus or they will walk all over you.
• "I-I won't give you my lunch," I said quietly and stood up from my seat.
• Sam chuckled pushing his friends aside to make room for him.
• "So you think that you're tough Marcus huh?" He demanded angrily and started pushing me hard.
• My lips started trembling.
• "Are you gonna cry wimp?"
• I tried to punch him,but he dodged my blow and pushed me twisting my arm in the process. His grip got tighter and I heard my arm finally snap like a twig.
• "Ahhh stop it hurts" I cried bitterly.
• Sam smirked and released me.
• I slumped to the ground whimpering in pain bitter tears rolled down my cheeks as I cried alone.
• That day I went back home with a broken arm.
• "You're a loser Marcus if you were my really my son you would have fought back like a man" father said angrily.