Chapter 64 Graveside Chit-chat

• She sat on the grave stone. “I know I should have come earlier. I was too scared, too scared to come see you, to know you're in here, that I will never be able to see that beautiful heart warming smile on your face..." she flicked a tear from her face. "That I will be unable to hear your voice, to hear you talk back to me...I didn't want any of that" she paused, tears began to flow freely down her face. "I am so sorry I couldn't be strong for you, I couldn't do it again, I did it once for my father, I couldn't do it another time..." she let the tears fall.
• When she became composed, she resumed speaking. “Yet here I am again. I couldn't run for so long. Somehow even in death I still needed you, I need you right now...” she frantically wiped at her face. "I need to stop crying I know that. I need to think of something, a memory that makes us both happy..." she smiled because she thought of one almost immediately. "Remember the one time we cooked a meal together? Of course we ended up making a mess of the whole place than actually cooking but it was worth it and it was fun. It reminded so much of my father and all the..." her chest heaved. "...all the wild cooking adventures we use to have and my mom couldn't relate to” she sighed. “It was such a beautiful time of our lives”
• Ashley stared off at nothing for while. "I don't know if it is okay to ask but are you fine wherever you are?..." she paused for a while as if waiting for any response. After some time she continued. "I was fine before all of this. Everything at some point made sense, I thought it was all falling in place..."