Chapter 36 Sex With A Stranger

• It was Slyvester that give a name to my insatiable hunger for sex and over the years, I have read up on it but yet to find any solution. All the articles online pointed to therapy but made it very clear that nymphomania is incurable. I have come to a place of acceptance of this fact and I have made up my mind that once I get to New York, I would start therapy so I could manage it better. After finding out that Mum and Uncle Ron were cheating on Dad, I tried to blame her for my condition but now I am finding out that she wasn't cheating with the man. In fact the only time she cheated, she cheated with Joseph, Daddy's lover and that was why they were fighting. There was a sense of relief when I thought that mum gave me the disease. There was someone to blame and hate instead of myself. But now that I knew it was never from her, I felt lost and confused.
• At one point, I concluded that it was because I wasn't conceived in the right and natural way and by the time it was dark, I decided to stick to that conclusion. This made me feel better. And broken. Like a toy faulty from the factory.
• I got into my car and made a U-Turn. My phone was still ringing but completely ignored. I travelled for 45 mins at 80kh before I realized how far I had driven. Not one used to driving long distances, I was already at my fastest but an hour after and I was still nowhere near home, I started getting worried. I have never been out at night, alone at such a long distance. The farthest I have ever travelled alone was the 20 minutes ride to town. It was already around 9pm when I stumbled on a has station. My gas was down by half anyway so I refilled my car and asked about the area. It was another hour away from home and I was tired, madly needed to masturbate and really not ready to go home. I doubted if I would ever be ready to go home again. How was I going to face Dad and Mum?