Chapter 53

• ~Lola’s POV~
• I never in a million years imagined that my married life would be like this. I never imagined that I would live in a fairytale, but here I am, married to the prince charming of all my fantasies. The one and only man I have ever wanted from as far back as I can remember wanting him. The man who is most emphatically not my knight in shining armor. When I was younger, he was my knight in shining armor, but I suppose things change as people get older, and their hearts change along with them. I shook my head and started to laugh at my pathetic self. I am trapped. Dante Monroe had me where he wanted me. How much pressure is too much for one person to handle? If I could just get an answer to this question, maybe I’d have a better idea of how much longer it will be before I completely lose my mind. Why is it that whenever I make an effort to bring some semblance of order to my otherwise chaotic life, something unexpected comes up, and things get even more complicated than they were before?
• Choosing to stay with Dante despite the challenges involved is not a simple task. I never imagined that we would get to this point where we would fight to the extent that we are doing right now. Being awake doesn’t help me much to relax. How can I unwind when my children are involved, and it irritates me that I am being cornered? I wish I could just sleep and never wake up, or sleep and wake up when all this is over. I wish we could just make peace for the sake of our children. We don’t have to be husband and wife, but this is no longer healthy for either of us. I have taken so many insults and disrespect from Dante for the past months since he took the kids, which automatically forces me to move back to NYC. But right now, all I want is peace. I heard a gentle knock at my door.