Chapter 66 Love You As You Are

• "i had no money and nowhere to go. I camped out in this back alley that was connected to a strip club. The women were kind to me and always snuck food and water out to me on their breaks. I ended up crashing on the couch of one of the dancers once winter hit. We eventually had a sexual fling but even then I had no emotion connection to the woman. It was strictly sex. Months went by and I floated from my striper's couch to the next, always having sexual flings with them.
• "This became my new normal. Then one night one girl introduced me to Kristoph. He was working at a small adult film project there in the city and I guess he liked my style. I never made the girls feel uncomfortable and I always stayed to myself",
• "I worked as a janitor for a long time and then eventually got to help with the filming and sets. Then when I turned 18, Kristoph introduced me with an audition and I took it because the money was good. And before I knew it, I was traveling all over the states and eventually in Europe doing these films. My first year filming was rough. I felt invincible and I slept my way through the women like they were disposable. I never connected with any of them and I knew they only wanted my body. I was fine with that though.