Chapter 7 With Marlani Riggs

• Juss’s Pov
• As soon as I cummed and my mind cleared, I pushed him away faster than my brain could react, before he would stop me, I jumped off the top. I could feel his eyes on me as I began to search for my panties on the floor, hurriedly wearing them while I buttoned my shirt.
• There were so many things running through my head, the alcohol in my system disappeared faster with every second as I realized I'd gotten it all wrong. That I'd done something I shouldn't have because I thought since it had happened before, it didn't matter.
• Which was stupid.
• How was I becoming even more stupid?
• "Juss," he called. I ignored him as I walked away, feeling the tears stinging my eyes. God, I'd never been more stupid and I hated this. I felt dirty and... disgusting, especially since I could feel the slick from my core rubbing my thighs together as I tried my hardest not to cave under the fact that my core was burning, both with un-satisfaction because it wanted more from the one person it shouldn't crave and the fact that he had ripped me apart even though he had been so gentle, one would think I was a virgin.
• "Please—"
• “It was one of the best nights of my life, you made me so happy. I had waited all my life to do this with you. At least tell me it meant something to you.”
• I felt his hand wrap around my wrist but before he could pull me close, I yanked my hand away like he burned me as I turned around and said in the calmest possible voice I could muster even though I was already so close to erupting a volcano, "Just... Don't… Please, I just want to go home."
• Though I wasn't looking at his face, I could feel the intensity of his gaze on me. I knew I looked stupid trying to act self-righteous when I had been the one to give consent in the first place.
• I waited for him to yell at me or say something about how it was my fault or curse at my indecisiveness but instead, I heard him let out a small sigh and say with a resignation filled with so much pain it had my chest hurting, "Of course. Ezekiel will drive you home. Have a safe trip."
• I bowed awkwardly because I didn't know what else to do and walked as quickly as possible outside of his house to the front yard. The entire place was empty and the cold around bit into my skin. I wanted to walk out the gate and find my way back but I doubted I even knew where ever it was that I was so I waited. It didn't take too long for a black car to drive into the premises and park in front of me before a slim and lanky-looking male with glasses walked up to me, his hands stretched out. "Miss Indigo Juss? Please, let me help you."
• I did, allowing him to also lead me back to the car. The drive to my hotel room was filled with nausea and my thoughts tormenting me for being a complete utter fool.
• When I got back inside, I took a hot shower, scrubbing my skin raw and letting the heat from it scald into my skin as punishment.
• I had managed to wash myself thoroughly, hoping to rid myself of every trace of Eggust’s scent that lingered on my body. What I couldn’t wash away though was the grime of reality that clung unto me like a parasite fastened into its host.
• I was racked with shame, not just because he fucked me to the euphoric throes of hell, the one that burned with flames of ecstasy, that bred forbidden desires. But because I enjoyed every bit of it, I wanted more, I ached for more. It was totally wrong, to some we may have committed the greatest sin, but in sin was one of the best nights of my life birthed.
• I decided to relax a little, before I worked on my system. I didn’t have classes today, which was for the best. I didn’t think I wanted to ever see his face again.
• I pulled out my laptop from my drawer and placed it on my bed. I was about to lie down when my phone rang. Only one person could call me at this time of the night .
• “Juss,” I heard Marlani’s voice on the other end. “You promised to come over, a promise you have failed to fulfill. I can’t have you staying in a hotel when I have a house. Don’t you want to see your best friend? And your little Eggust? He's all grown up now.”
• My breath heaved at the mention of his name. If only she knew what had transpired between us.
• “Juss!” She yelled, distracting me from my thoughts. “Should I expect you?”
• “Yes, yes, Marlani, you already know I can’t say no to you.”
• “Great, I won’t tell Eggust, it would be a surprise.” She beamed before the line went dead.
• ******
• Now, past my better judgment, I was sitting in Marlani's house, because of course, she had invited me and there was no way I could escape her forever, with my excuses.
• "I can't believe you didn't call me when you got here, Juss. That wasn't very nice of you. Have you already replaced me with some hermosa?"
• I chuckled at her Spanish. It was really poor, but better than the last time we spoke.
• Even with all these years, Marlani Riggs managed to look like she hadn't aged a day. I watched as she poured herself a cup of tea with a grace that made me almost envy her. Almost.
• I couldn't imagine being so rich that I had to attend parties and events to keep up certain appearances. "Friends don't do such. Especially best friends."
• "I'm sorry, I—" Was fucking your son,” I replied in my head.
• "I left México in so much hurry that it was hard for me to have time for anything else." Then I raised my hands up, surrendering when I noticed her side eye at my words and added, "But it's not an excuse so I'm making up by coming to stay with you for a while, it’s better than staying in a hotel. Plus I get to eat free meals."
• "Not like you had another choice." She said this with a roll of her eyes, a smile coming to her lips as she added with a small chuckle, "This house is big and lonely so you have no idea how pleasing it is to have you here. We have so much to talk about. How is Marco, by the way?"
• Whatever smile I'd plastered on my face dissolved faster than I could keep it back up, my hand immediately looked for what to grip or dig their nails into as I tried to think of what to say.
• Marlani had never liked Marco, I knew that if I said the truth about what happened, she would go batshit but before I could give any responses to that, she was no longer looking at me but at the entrance of her house with a smile so bright it mirrored the sun come to her face while she rose up from seat with her hands spread out and said, "My darling. It's so great to see you."
• Eggust Fleming hugged his Mother briefly, then pulled away and placed a kiss on her forehead. "It is great to see you as well, mother."
• Marlani turned to me now, and with so much enthusiasm that the guilt in my heart dug deeper said, "You remember your Aunt—"
• "Juss." He cut in, holding her hand now with his eyes staying on me. "Adding Aunt to her name makes her sound older than she truly is." Then he turned to me, his blue eyes doing what they were known for which made it hard to look back at him as he said, "And yes, I do remember. I saw her yesterday at school. She's my professor actually."
• A shiver ran down my back at his words as I heard Marlani say, "Oh? That's good then. I'm sure you both have a lot to talk about as well but we'd need her to rest first." Then she turned, saying in a slightly louder voice, "Girls, could you help Miss Juss get settled, she’ll need to—?"
• "It's fine, Mother." He cut in gently, his eyes still staying on me. I wondered briefly if he wanted her to know what had happened. If this was some sort of punishment and when I heard the rest of the words leave his lips, my heart dropped to my stomach. "I can take her to her room myself."