Chapter 5 Slept with my step dad

• The drive back to my mom house was the most nervous drive that I had ever taken since I was born
• ,never for once had I felt this way .
• I knew I was scared of the fact that I ignored mom yesterday and she would really be mad at me and I just couldn't imagine what I was going to tell her .
• ,there's no way that I would be telling her that I had sex with a stranger ,that was something that I would never do ,she's going to be so mad and disappointed at me and that's something that I would ever want .
• I tried my best to think straight as I drove to avoid myself being killed ,I couldn't just die by just thinking.
• I just have to get myself in check and stop thinking about silly stuff .
• It really surprised me how I was able to forget about that useless ex boyfriend of mine and the stupidest best friend that I loved and did everything for .
• The two had the guts to hurt me, not everything that we have been through together.
• I knew that I should be thinking about it ,but I just can't help it ,I just feel like I would run mad .
• The green light indicates that I could now move and I did without looking back .
• I Could feel my heart beating so hard as I drove ,I was definitely in for this ,I wasn't going to back out now .
• I knew mom could be standing out and waiting for me .
• I couldn't imagine how excited she would be ,she's going to be so happy .
• The moment I saw mom ahead of me I let out a heavy breath.
• I knew that it was time for the hardest thing that I ever have to do ,that I just couldn't stop thinking about but .
• I was definitely going into that computer and mom is going to tell me everything without looking back .
• "Why don't you just drive in "I heard someone yell at me.
• I turned and I saw James.the man looking at me with a worried look on his face.
• I guess he was surprised that I was stopping there while I was supposed to drive in .
• "Good morning James ,I guess you had the best night ever "I greeted him in my usual happy manner .
• "why wouldn't I be happy and have a peaceful night when my madam had the best thing of her life "he told me smiling and I smiled back at him .
• James had been my mom 's personal gate man since I was a kid and the sweetest part of it was that he had been there for me and always gave me the advice that I wanted .
• I wouldn't deny the fact that I loved this man. I don't even want to be away from him, not even for a second.I guess he was one of the best things that had ever happened to me .
• I packed my car and came out and just as I had thought ,mom rushed out wearing a tight bum shot with a shirt too.I wouldn't lie but this woman was looking way more sexy than I had ever imagined.
• ,she was just looking good in whatever that she wore and I really did love it .
• "Mom ,Am going to choke to death if you keep on holding me like this "I whispered almost dying .
• Mom pulled away and the normal scolding scorn came to her face ,I knew that she was ready to scold me again .
• "Hey little girl ,don't tell me you went out with that boyfriend of yours again and that stupid friends that I never like .
• you know how much I hate that girl but you you keep going out with her ,I told you that girl was of no use but you wouldn't just listen you were just telling me ,I Could tell that they were totally useless because yesterday I couldn't get to you and I also couldn't get to them ,of what use are they now .
• I hope you know the kind of people that you are bound with me "mom told me and just bowed my head .
• ,It was just as if mom taking about her it brought back all the stupid memories that I never wanted to think about .
• "I guess you were right all along mom ,I should had listen to you when you told me that that girl was of no use but I was just blinded by my love for her ,that I just couldn't see it and I really do regret all of it I wished that I never got to meet them .
• I wish they were never part of my life and I wish none of this had to happen.I just hate them and I really feel like killing them right now ,I want them to feel the same pains that I am feeling at this moment.
• and I hope that it just doesn't get to this ,I hope they both die a miserable death and they rot in hell "I half yelled and started crying but instead mom started cuddling me .
• "It's okay dear ,you know you don't have to curse them that much you Could just tell me what had happened you don't know "mom told me .
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• ."I told you that boy was of no use but you wouldn't listen ,you can't tell me that I hate them but yet you could just let them go
• "Mom half yelled .
• "It's okay mom ,it's okay ,I had forgotten about all of that and all we have to do right now is to focus on what is you and that means that I would be having a father after all these years of begging you "I yelled and jumped up from the chair .
• I saw mom smiling.I guess she was so happy than I was and I didn't need anyone to tell me that I could see it, on her face it was just so visible .
• " I love you so much babe you don't know how much this means to me but before that I would like to tell you something else ,all I just wanted to say is that I am older than him by 6 years but it doesn't really matter, it 's just love and you know it.
• you know I told you that I would be going on a date with my boyfriend,you know you should have met him all this while but you just wouldn't listen .
• all you just have to do is to meet him , his as excited as you and his ready to meet you just the way that you want to ,I went out yesterday with a dinner date and after we had lunch he popped the question he asked me to marry and you know how much I love him ,so I said yes "mom narrated with a sweet smile on her face .
• "I smiled looking at her ,I could see that she was just so happy ,I just wanted her to be this way forever.
• This was just one of those things that I wanted .
• "Mom, it seems you are so excited ,how cruel life could be. My mom got engaged and here I am getting called off by my fiance .
• I guess I wasn't meant to get married my entire life ,I am just supposed to stay single "I said, turning my face away .
• "Why don't you just stop talking like this? You know how much I hate seeing you sad ,you shouldn't be saying something like this ,you are just 24 and you will have a whole lot of admirers .
• I didn't give birth to a weakling ,I didn't take the pain of giving birth at the age of 18 just to have this .
• I knew what I did when I didn't choose to abort you ,you don't have to think this way ,you are going to get married to a man that would love you just the way that you had always wanted .
• " "Am sorry for saying that mom ,I was just .
• " ,it's okay you know I know what it feels like "mom said and hugged me .
• I hugged mom and that's was when I thought about her fiance ,and I wondered why I haven't still seen him till now ,or was he hiding from me ,well that I guess is something stood , because I wouldn't do something as stupid as that .
• "Mom, where's he?I haven't seen him all this while,'' I said , pulling away from her .
• Mom pulled away and smiled .
• "He would be here for dinner. He just wants to get some with some important things.
• I just want you to stay around till he comes.I don't want to make you miss him again .
• " I will be at my room and please I don't want to disturb you ,I have already been through a lot these past few days "I told mom and she nodded and smiled .
• I walked away and climbed up the stairs back to my room that I grew up in.I just Couldn't help but smile ,I knew how much I just wanted this though I decorated this room but I still love it tho ,it was literally one of my favorites my best room ever .
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• The day went back as quickly as possible.I think today was literally the best day of my life because grand mom and dad were here and they made sure that I felt comfortable .
• All my family members were present. I guess they all wanted to see my step dad and I thought that I was the only one who hadn't seen him .
• my brother uncle jed was here and mom twin sister Tara was Also here including some of my uncle's and my grandparents .
• I was only close to my grandparents because they were the only ones that treated me like family .
• mom said his brother was against her giving birth to me because of the circumstances surrounding my birth and because of that he never for once treated me well ,but how was that supposed to be my business I just didn't even care and I don't give a fuck ,I had always been treated differently so it's no big deal and I love it though .
• "Why don't you just smile ,you know you can't keep your money face all day long or don't want your mom to get married "Uncle Jerry said but I totally ignored him .
• Jerry not today,I had today you severally yo leave my daughter but yet you keep on doing it "mom half yelled .
• "Not today kids "grandma said and hit get hands on the table .
• "You should stop it ,her husband would be here soon and I don't want the both of you doing that "grandma said beforehand she Could finish her statement the door to our House opened ,and the most man that I had ever seen in my entire life Walked into the living room and just immediately mom rushed out to grabbed his hands .
• I raised my head to look at the man and just as I did our eyes met and it brought some memories back .
• I knew that I had met this man before ,these familiar brown eyes ,they were known to me but where had seen him and that was when my thoughts went to the man I had a night stand with at the club .
• I could feel the beads of sweat break out of my forehead .
• I had sex with this man just last night and here he was as my mom fiance,I hoped it wasn't just what I was thinking or am going to run mad the next moment .
• "Mom, is he the one ?" I asked almost immediately as his brown eyes pierced directly into my soul ,I guess he knew me.
• "Yes darling, this is my fiance and baby, meet my daughter Theodora "mom said smiling and that was it .
• ,I had sex the man that is getting married to my mom,I had a one night stand with my soon to be step dad