She had her guard high up when she thought about the heart-wrenching moments back then.
She had her mind set on disregarding her feelings toward him.
Nicole vowed to not let her residual feelings toward Evan show.
"John, his life or death does not concern me! The old Nicole Lane had long been murdered by him. He killed me once. Do you think a victim like me would care about her murderer? He might as well be dead to me!"