Chapter 31 Shattered Hope

• Darius
• I am really fucking up big time. I am giving Ana these hopes that I fucking know I can't keep up with. I really feel something for that girl, and I am losing my mind each time I think of her. An inexplicable connection tugs at my heartstrings each time I dwell on thoughts of her. It's a sensation that's difficult to understand, an emotion that goes beyond the realm of words. She rents a space in my mind that is both comforting and tormenting—a paradoxical existence that sends my sanity teetering on the edge. Every thought of her is like a sweet melody playing against the backdrop of my consciousness, yet it's this same melody that threatens to shatter the composure I've so meticulously built up.
• I am fucking giving her hope, yet I know I can't have her. I know I can have her as the prince of this kingdom, but I can't fucking bring myself to hurting someone I love so much. I can hurt all these princesses, but I can't bring myself to hurt the one person who has shown me love ever since I was born. I started experiencing love with Ana. I have fucked a few girls in my life, but it was never love; it was just fucking, but for Ana, I am fucking dump and don't even know what to do when I'm around her. I fucking feel like a kid in a candy shop when I see that girl; it's weird for someone my age, but I can't help the feelings that I feel for her are so strong.