Chapter 263 49

• Chapter 49
• I’m quiet on the drive home with Xavier, thinking about Christine’s question. Boyfriend, lover, father…I don’t know which of these describes Xavier anymore, and thinking about it gives me a sinking sense of dread. I want him to be all three, and that’s impossible. What future could I possibly have with my mother’s husband? Where on earth do I think this is going?
• When we get home, I set up my computer at the dining room table to study, and Xavier preps dinner, but I’m sulky and silent. Eventually he comes to stand behind me and places his hands on my shoulder, kissing the top of my head.