Chapter 3560 Irresistible Desires:>Ep4
- However, as it always is, the trade-off is devastating. It's always the same. As the need spurts out of me the void is immediately filled with self-loathing for what I've done. I'm ashamed of and appalled at my actions and the betrayal I've visited upon my family. I'm cheating on my wife and my daughter. I'm engaged in something dirty and sordid, a dark and necessarily secret debauchery I'm powerless to resist.
- And I have tried to resist it. I've begged Simon to stop; I've even considered confessing all to Clara, but always balk in the face of her potential reaction and the devastation it would mean.
- I'm laid there on the tainted and soiled marital bed when the unthinkable happens.