Chapter 140 Leilani is the last person I want to see

• I promise to love this man. Give him my all. Take care of him the way he takes care of me. Make him the only man in my life, and then pray for forgiveness, for everything I have done to hurt this beautiful soul. And hope my secret pain and unfaithfulness remained dead and forgotten.
• With my voice shaking with emotion, I whispered, “I am not perfect, Neil. But I am willing to be the woman you deserve. I can’t wait to be your wife, baby. I love you.” As I said the last part, my eyes closed briefly, like I was willing it to be so. Willing it to be true. Although it hurt to say it because it held so many painful memories, but I was going to say those words a million times to Neil everyday till that suffocating pain fades.
• Say it till my soul forgets about that other man and replaces him firmly with Neil and his baby blue eyes and handsome smile. With my eyes still closed, Neil leaned down to cover my mouth with his in a desperate, hungry and passionate kiss, wrapping me deeper into the cocoon of his arms. With him kissing me this passionately standing outside a magnificent house in the middle of the night, lit by beautiful lights, I actually felt loved and wanted.