Chapter 400 Too Much to Bear

Ethan leaned against the wall, feeling weak all over as he closed his eyes. Then, he clenched his fists and thumped the table as hard as he could until his hands bled to express the pain in his heart. Nevertheless, that didn’t help to alleviate his pain at all. Even so, the pain in his hands couldn’t compare to the pain in his heart. Unable to express his agony, he could only bear with it until it finally overwhelmed him. Placing Lauren’s picture right over his chest, he sank into his chair in a trance.
He didn’t dare to imagine how Lauren coped with her mental breakdown when their child passed away. How did she spend those five years in prison? After Al died, she went crazy for two and a half years, and how did she make it through all that hardship? Despite his curiosity, he didn’t dare to dwell on it too much. In fact, he even decided not to take the footage back with him from the penitentiary because he was too afraid to watch and relive Lauren’s painful moments.
What was I doing when Lauren was suffering in the prison all by herself? Where was I when she was slowly losing her faith in me? Ah, right. I was with Nancy, keeping her company so that she could recover faster. When he thought about the moments that Lauren hurt herself and coped with the loss of their son alone, Ethan wished he could just kill himself.