Chapter 44 THE LAST SELF CONTROL IN ME
- Have you ever felt this feeling of loneliness, empty void, guilt, and regrets? I felt that after Chris departed from the hostel.
- It has been three weeks but it feels like yesterday. I felt a surge of loneliness and regrets knowing I was the main reason why the attraction cycle happened to him. If he had not been attracted to me, things would have been better.
- Most of the time, I wish I was the only one being affected. I wish I was the only one being attracted to the same sexes and not the other way round. It feels like I am suffocating and the person I can rely on has left to figure out about himself.