Chapter 35

• Ryan POV:-
• I couldn't focus on anything, my mind always came to Rebecca, thinking whether she is alright or not, is she fine alone? I couldn't leave her alone at home, I need someone to be with her in my absence, She needs someone to be with her, to hold her close. I hope Mom doesn't piss her off. I should have left her at Marianne's place but my heart is not convinced by it. And no matter how much I try I cannot shrug off this feeling of uneasiness. I hope someone will be by her side to tell her that he is here or she is here for her so that she can be at ease until I come and hold her.
• I just cannot pay attention to anything but her. The thing which left me most dazzled was whether she is thinking about me, whether she's missing me like I am missing her or not? I don't know when this feeling took over me and stirred my mind but it is somehow mesmerizing and I want to indulge myself more and more in it. It doesn't matter how much I try to desolate myself from her, in the end, I cannot. I just want to be closed with her. What is this feeling? I never felt like that for her before, is this simple liberation of her or not? Not being able to understand this fathom I let things to go with their flow so that we can proceed gradually, not forcing anything upon each other. My feelings for her are just taking over my senses and I just cannot save myself from it, I want to be close with her, I want to hold her to tell her that I am here and no one else, I want her to be mine and mine alone. I don't know whether she thinks about me the same way or not but I just cannot take it anymore. Maybe I should try to take our relation to the next level so that she might be able to think about me the same way and we can think about our future.