Elizabeth gets up, Brian already off to work. Which in a way she was glad, she couldn’t hold her emotions in. They were still up and down. She saw last night how fast her world could come crashing down. That you can think you have everything, then it can be lost in an instance. For the first time in the last two months, she saw that this could be broken, it seemed every now and then she was reminded of that. Things only going smoothly for a short period of time before someone coming in and blowing it up again.
She had to admit, her old life might have been boring but at least it wasn’t crazy like this. Ethan and she had their moments, but nothing like this. For the most part, it was quiet and dull, she never thought she would wish for that back. To be the plain ordinary everyday housewife, with the highest stress being about dinner or homework. Maybe it was better to be with someone you just cared for and not loved?
It was sure less stressful, but then you didn’t have Ethan and a Victoria in the past. There was just Karen and Joe. They were saints comparing to Victoria and Ethan. You could ignore them and stay far away from them, only seeing them on holidays. This shit was all year round!
Elizabeth gets herself out of bed and goes to see her darling son, who she loves more than anything in this world. She is so happy to have him. She just looks at him and smiles, knowing he was the best part of her and Brian. What she wanted most was to give him a happy family. One she thought she had, then she feels don’t think like that, One you do have.
She has to admit to herself that Victoria rattled her more last night than ever. To see her lips and hands on him like that, just hurt her to the core. Even though deep down, she knew that Brian didn’t want her, she still had this little voice in her mind saying what if he did? What if Victoria would change his mind? What if he would go back for Tyler? Then she thinks if he wanted to do that, he already would have. She had to get this out of her mind before it drove her insane.
She takes her son and dresses him for the day, taking him downstairs to feed him. Spending a lot of time with him in the morning before heading to her office to work. She leaves her phone in their bedroom not wanting the distraction. At this moment, she is trying to finish this book and get one thing out of her way. It just seems, as she sits in her chair, nothing comes to her.