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Chapter 7 Ilusha

  • THE doctor came out of the room again, muffled in his fur coat and with hi_ap on his head. His face looked almost angry and disgusted, as though he wer_fraid of getting dirty. He cast a cursory glance round the passage, lookin_ternly at Alyosha and Kolya as he did so. Alyosha waved from the door to th_oachman, and the carriage that had brought the doctor drove up. The captai_arted out after the doctor, and, bowing apologetically, stopped him to ge_he last word. The poor fellow looked utterly crushed; there was a scared loo_n his eyes.
  • "Your Excellency, your Excellency… is it possible?" he began, but could not g_n and clasped his hands in despair. Yet he still gazed imploringly at th_octor, as though a word from him might still change the poor boy's fate.
  • "I can't help it, I am not God!" the doctor answered offhand, though with th_ustomary impressiveness.
  • "Doctor… your Excellency… and will it be soon, soon?"
  • "You must be prepared for anything," said the doctor in emphatic and incisiv_ones, and dropping his eyes, he was about to step out to the coach.
  • "Your Excellency, for Christ's sake!" the terror-stricken captain stopped hi_gain. "Your Excellency! But can nothing, absolutely nothing save him now?"
  • "It's not in my hands now," said the doctor impatiently, "but h'm!… " h_topped suddenly. "If you could, for instance… send… your patient… at once,
  • without delay" (the words "at once, without delay," the doctor uttered with a_lmost wrathful sternness that made the captain start) "to Syracuse, th_hange to the new be-ne-ficial
  • "To Syracuse!" cried the captain, unable to grasp what was said.
  • "Syracuse is in Sicily," Kolya jerked out suddenly in explanation. The docto_ooked at him.
  • "Sicily! Your Excellency," faltered the captain, "but you've seen"- he sprea_ut his hands, indicating his surroundings- "mamma and my family?"
  • "N-no, SiciIy is not the place for the family, the family should go t_aucasus in the early spring… your daughter must go to the Caucasus, and you_ife… after a course of the waters in the Caucasus for her rheumatism… must b_ent straight to Paris to the mental specialist Lepelletier; I could give yo_ note to him, and then… there might be a change-"
  • "Doctor, doctor! But you see!" The captain flung wide his hands agai_espairingly, indicating the bare wooden walls of the passage.
  • "Well, that's not my business," grinned the doctor. "I have only told you th_nswer of medical science to your question as to possible
  • "Don't be afraid, apothecary, my dog won't bite you," Kolya rapped out loudly,
  • noticing the doctor's rather uneasy glance at Perezvon, who was standing i_he doorway. There was a wrathful note in Kolya's voice. He used the wor_pothecary instead of doctor on purpose, and, as he explained afterwards, use_t "to insult him."
  • "What's that?" The doctor flung up his head, staring with surprise at Kolya.
  • "Who's this?" he addressed Alyosha, as though asking him to explain.
  • "It's Perezvon's master, don't worry about me," Kolya said incisively again.
  • "Perezvon?"[[13]](footnotes.xml#footnote_13) repeated the doctor, perplexed.
  • "He hears the bell, but where it is he cannot tell. Good-bye, we shall meet i_yracuse." "Who's this? Who's this?" The doctor flew into a terrible rage. "H_s a schoolboy, doctor, he is a mischievous boy; take no notice of him," sai_lyosha, frowning and speaking quickly. "Kolya, hold your tongue!" he cried t_rassotkin. "Take no notice of him, doctor," he repeated, rather impatiently.
  • "He wants a thrashing, a good thrashing!" The doctor stamped in a perfec_ury. "And you know, apothecary, my Perezvon might bite!" said Kolya, turnin_ale, with quivering voice and flashing eyes. "Ici, Perezvon!" "Kolya, if yo_ay another word, I'll have nothing more to do with you," Alyosha crie_eremptorily. "There is only one man in the world who can command Nikola_rassotkin- this is the man," Kolya pointed to Alyosha. "I obey him, good-
  • bye!" He stepped forward, opened the door, and quickly went into the inne_oom. Perezvon flew after him. The doctor stood still for five seconds i_mazement, looking at Alyosha; then, with a curse, he went out quickly to th_arriage, repeating aloud, "This is… this is… I don't know what it is!" Th_aptain darted forward to help him into the carriage. Alyosha followed Koly_nto the room. He was already by Ilusha's bedside. The sick boy was holdin_is hand and calling for his father. A minute later the captain, too, cam_ack. "Father, father, come… we… " Ilusha faltered in violent excitement, bu_pparently unable to go on, he flung his wasted arms, found his father an_olya, uniting them in one embrace, and hugging them as tightly as he could.
  • The captain suddenly began to shake with dumb sobs, and Kolya's lips and chi_witched. "Father, father! How sorry I am for you!" Ilusha moaned bitterly.
  • "Ilusha… darling… the doctor said… you would be all right… we shall be happy…
  • the doctor… " the captain began. "Ah, father! I know what the new doctor sai_o you about me… . I saw!" cried Ilusha, and again he hugged them both wit_ll his strength, hiding his face on his father's shoulder. "Father, don'_ry, and when I die get a good boy, another one… choose one of them all, _ood one, call him Ilusha and love him instead of me… " "Hush, old man, you'l_et well," Krassotkin cried suddenly, in a voice that sounded angry. "Bu_on't ever forget me, father," Ilusha went on, "come to my grave… and father,
  • bury me by our big stone, where we used to go for our walk, and come to m_here with Krassotkin in the evening… and Perezvon… I shall expect you… .
  • Father, father!" His voice broke. They were all three silent, still embracing.
  • Nina was crying, quietly in her chair, and at last seeing them all crying,
  • "mamma," too, burst into tears. "Ilusha! Ilusha!" she exclaimed. Krassotki_uddenly released himself from Ilusha's embrace. "Good-bye, old man, mothe_xpects me back to dinner," he said quickly. "What a pity I did not tell her!
  • She will be dreadfully anxious… But after dinner I'll come back to you for th_hole day, for the whole evening, and I'll tell you all sorts of things, al_orts of things. And I'll bring Perezvon, but now I will take him with me,
  • because he will begin to howl when I am away and bother you. Good-bye! And h_an out into the passage. He didn't want to cry, but in the passage he burs_nto tears. Alyosha found him crying. "Kolya, you must be sure to keep you_ord and come, or he will be terribly disappointed," Alyosha sai_mphatically. "I will! Oh, how I curse myself for not having come before"
  • muttered Kolya, crying, and no longer ashamed of it. At that moment th_aptain flew out of the room, and at once closed the door behind him. His fac_ooked frenzied, his lips were trembling. He stood before the two and flung u_is arms. "I don't want a good boy! I don't want another boy!" he muttered i_ wild whisper, clenching his teeth. "If I forget thee, knees before th_ooden bench. Pressing his fists against his head, he began sobbing wit_bsurd whimpering cries, doing his utmost that his cries should not be hear_n the room. Kolya ran out into the street. "Good-bye, Karamazov? Will yo_ome yourself?" he cried sharply and angrily to Alyosha. "I will certainl_ome in the evening." "What was that he said about Jerusalem?… What did h_ean by that?" "It's from the Bible. 'If I forget thee, Jerusalem,' that is,
  • if I forget all that is most precious to me, if I let anything take its place,
  • then may-" "I understand, that's enough! Mind you come! Ici, Perezvon!" h_ried with positive ferocity to the dog, and with rapid strides he went home.