Chapter 4

• ~ Alpha Andrew ~
• “Andrea, Andrea, someone please get my Andrea for me” I called out hysterically to no one in particular for I was all alone in the hall.
• I felt this sharp pain inside of me. It was so deep and cuts across my heart. It was as if my Andrea was in trouble, yes, she was in trouble and I can feel it. She was reaching for me, and I could hear her voice calling out to me.
• She was somewhere, amidst flowers, lovely flowers. No, not lovely flowers, there is nothing lovely about the flowers if they could cause so much pain to my Andrea, to me.
• Yes, it's becoming clearer, I think I can see her she is in a garden, and she is lying down in the garden. But why isn’t she moving, oh no, I fear for the worse? She should not be lying there in the garden looking almost lifeless.
• This image is just too vivid, so real. My Andrea is in trouble and there is nothing I could do, no, I caused her this much trouble. I could not protect her even within my own pack.
• I am slowly going crazy, I am losing my mind. I can’t think straight anymore, it was as if my whole world was falling apart right before my very eyes. It was crumbling right before me, and my Andrea is its only victim.
• All my efforts, everything I have done to protect my little girl, my angel, all amounted to nothing. No, I did absolutely nothing for her, I mean, I am the cause of everything, I caused it all, I failed my Andrea, my princess.
• I have to go there, I need to be in that garden and go for my Andrea.
• With this thought, I started walking out of the hall absentmindedly. I was oblivious of everything around me, I was going nowhere in particular. All I know was that I just have to go get my Andrea wherever she might be.
• As I was going, I stumbled on something, and then I staggered and was going to fall down when a hand quickly caught me from behind. I turned to see that it was beta Xander that had stopped me from falling to the floor.
• “Get my Andrea for me, Xander, take me to my Andrea,” I said as a tear rolled down my face.
• “She is fine, alpha,” he replied as he tried to pacify me.
• “No, Xander, no she is not. I can feel it, it is so real, she needs me, take me to her” I objected.
• I looked and sounded so defeated. My life is going to end if there is no Andrea in it, it would be meaningless without her. I looked intensely at my beta and was hoping he would understand the extent of my pain, and understand all that I am going through. I wanted him to share in my pain as much as he could. I wanted him to be the one to share this back-breaking burden of mine.
• “It would all be meaningless without her, Xander, there would be no life without her, absolutely nothing to live for” I lamented.
• “Alpha, your Andrea is fine, she will come back to us” he assured me.
• I could not bring myself to heed Xander, rather I went on and on pouring out my fear to him. “I failed her, Xander, I could not do anything for her but could only cause her pains, pains upon pains” I lamented.
• Beta Xander turned his face away as tears run down his face. He knew what I felt, he had been there from the very first time and he understood just how difficult it is for me to pull through this.
• I continued to stare at him, hoping to get more reassuring words from him, I needed my best friend, Xander to assure me that my angel is safe. Instead, he said nothing but kept his gaze away from me.
• Frustrated by his silence, I dragged him on his shirt with both hands and started to shake him violently, refusing to let go. “Say something, Xander, why are you suddenly quiet? I am going crazy, your silence is killing me” I yelled at him.
• In reaction, he could only murmur inaudibly in fear. He was completely lost as to what to do to pacify me. Already, he knows it is only the sight of Andrea that could bring me back to my normal self.
• Defeated, I softened my hold on him, and he slowly pulled away from me without uttering any word. I realized that taking it out on him would do nothing to aid the situation of my girl at the moment.
• Just as I was thinking of the next appropriate step to take, I heard some footsteps approaching. I turned towards the door and saw the warriors enter the hall, with gamma Justin carrying my Andrea.
• Upon seeing my little girl being carried, I became instantly numb. My restless mind wandered to so many things at once, so many possibilities of what might have happened to her.
• I could not hold it on any longer and I had to let my emotions get the better part of me. in my subconscious state, I opened my mouth wide, and it was followed by a thunderous growl that almost shook the ground that we were standing on.