Chapter 48

I ask Gabriel to leave it at that about my baby's paternity, that it's better to wait until he's born to know his facial features. He is still determined to find out if it's true what Antonio said, but I tell him to forget it and focus more on our relationship.
As much as I try to fall asleep at night, I can't sleep at the thought that all this time Antonio always saw my stupid face. I still remember that day I yelled at Gabriel that I chose Antonio. Back then I was so young and naive that I believed in that fake love that my best friend's brother swore to have. I keep thinking about what would have happened if I had chosen Gabriel that time. Maybe now we would be married with children. It's impossible to sleep if I think about the wrong choices I made in my life by rushing into things. I turn over in bed to see the man I once thought played with me; his face is free of imperfections, except for his beard, which gives him that masculinity that drives me crazy. In truth I was a fool because all this time I always loved him. If I was capricious with him, I guess it was because I wanted to get his attention in any way I could and he just ignored me. He opens his eyes, letting me see the blue I love so much. He smiles sweetly at me.
—Can't you sleep? —he murmurs and pulls me close to him.