Chapter 21 Unexpressed 3

• I SAW MY WORLD scrambles, failed to express the deepest love for Ebeline, death took away. The trauma of my-self breaks every day in pieces. I try to kill everything that has to do with Ebeline. Everything about this love despite twelve months of my life is wreck. I couldn't.
• One morning, I was alone not doing anything. Later, I held myself talking without other person's hearing me. Everything around me for that moment dies. I love you, Ebeline. How I wish you are alive is only the sound I hear.
• To save my memory blown by unexpressed wind, I started writing my ordeal. The first time I fell in love. Real love that never lasted and how it ended. Since then, every lady in my eyes is Ebeline. Esther was brief but Catherine wasn't. I try to have something common with them but it all fail.