Chapter 8 Her Anxiety

• Angela's POV.
• I don't know what happened to him but he started behaving differently. At first, I thought he was just tired and got drunk to relax but when he avoided eye contact and told me that he is going to do some important office work on our first night, I became very upset and it felt like he was wanting to avoid me. Only thinking about that, my heartfelt pain. I am waiting for him, getting ready, in his room, and he wants to leave me alone here and go to work. That makes me feel sad. But still, I tried to ask him with a meek voice, while controlling my emotions, preventing him from going. But even when I asked, he completely ignored my words. Seeing his behavior towards me, my heart was troubled and filled with sorrow! 
• I suddenly started to lose my calmness and shouted with anger and asked, what is the reason for his behavior like this? Why is he ignoring me? Asking such questions, tears started flowing from my eyes and I did not know when my smile was replaced by my sobs! But I really want to know why he treats me like this every time, so I asked him angrily, did he ever love me?  Asking this question, my lips started to hesitate.  My heart started to get nervous and my eyes started getting a bit blazing. But still, I couldn't stop myself without asking. This is not the first time that this question has come to my mind, but this time I could not live without asking it. 
• When he proposed to me on the last day of college, I felt that I had got all the happiness in the world. He was always gentle towards me and we both were happy. And this way, a few months later he started working in his father's company and over time he became busy with his work. He often went out of state for many months in connection with work. Due to this the meeting of both of us was greatly reduced. I used to talk to him often through phone or video calls. He always apologized for not giving me proper time and I always refused to let him do it! Because I knew that he was more upset than me. So I always tried to encourage him. No matter how upset I felt when he was not beside me. I don't want him to blame himself. But with months, gradually our calls and video calls also started to decrease and he had less time to talk to me. He stopped doing video calls and his normal calls also gradually decreased. He started calling me once or twice in the weeks or months. Sometimes I started to feel deeply depressed but every time I explained to myself that everything was fine and there was nothing to be worried about. He is just busy with his work. This really should be hard for him to handle all the business all alone. I always thought like this. But slowly - slowly his behavior towards me started changing. He has become less talkative and always avoided meeting me. He didn't change his gentleness towards me but there was something different in his eyes. There is no affection and admiration for me like before. His lips smiled but his smile did not reach my heart like always. Even we sit together and talked but it seemed that the distance of his heart from my heart was increasing. It seemed as if something had changed between us.  If not from my side, then definitely from his side but I don't know where, when and what changed. But it's become hell for me to see his behavior. I started to feel anxious. I always tried to ask him but he always apologized to me for his behavior and not making time for us. Seeing his upset face I always held myself back and always tried to understand his situation. But still, in my heart, my patients started to decrease and my anxiety started to increase with each day. I still feel depressed and sad. 
• But finally, all my patience and waiting for him became worth it when his parents came to meet my parents to fix our wedding date. That one moment cleared all my confusion, depression, and anxiety. My happiness was reflected in my face. After the marriage was fixed, he again started spending most of the time with me and his behavior also became the same as always. He started treating me more gently and always tried to make me happy. 
• This way after one month our marriage finally took place and I felt like I was still dreaming. But all my happiness vanished when he started behaving differently again on our wedding day. When I thought everything had become normal. He changed my mind with his actions. 
• When I asked him if he loves me or not, he didn't answer me at all. He only looked at my face shockingly. As time passed, his silence started breaking something inside me. My body was trembling and my tears were rolling down my cheeks non-stop. My weeping could be heard clearly and I started to feel exhausted not only from outside but from inside. My thoughts become a mess and I'm not ready to hear something unpleasant and unwanted words but before I could understand more or say anything more to him. He made his moves towards me. He hooked me tightly to his chest and wrapped his arms around my waist. His sudden action made my eyes widen and I was stunned for a moment but then I realized that I was already in his arms and he hugged me tightly. Before I could utter any words, his lips came closer to my ears and he said in an anxious tone that he loves me more than anything and his life is incomplete without me. He confessed his deep love for me and with this my all anger, frustration, and fear vanished. My heart was deeply moved by his words and a few moments later my lips started smiling again there was no more sadness and sorrow. His every sentence filled my heart with happiness and love. Each of his words was going to touch my soul. I started to feel his love from his voice and his touch. His actions moved me to tears and the next second I wrapped my arms around his back tightly and hugged him back.