Chapter 5 Four

• I was dizzy because of my headache and I smelled cigarette smoke. I slowly opened my eyes and a ceiling opened up to me. At first it was nothing to me and I was still squinting but when I realized what happened to me last night I quickly got up.
• My lips parted in amazement when I saw how beautiful the room was, especially the paint that matched the rest of the room. I lay on my head when I felt a slight pain. I gasped as an idea entered my mind. I put it in my mouth and swallowed.
• Why am I dizzy and who caught me?
• I shook my head and bowed.
• "You're awake."
• I took a breath and looked up at the speaker. My lips parted when I saw Steven. I looked down at his finger with a cigarette stuck in it. My heart was beating fast.
• "Steven?" I called his name in surprise and couldn't help but look at my clothes.
• I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw that I was still wearing my gown from last night. When I looked up again I was startled to see that Steven had put the dying cigarette in the ashtray and walked over to me. I swallowed and was a little surprised when he suddenly knelt on one of his knees while his body was between me.
• There was no emotion in his eyes looking at me. I tightened my grip on the bed sheet and closed my mouth. I could see her frowning as she watched me. I swallowed.
• "S-Steven" My voice trembled. "Where am I? Why am I here?"
• His jaw tightened as he looked down at my hand. He was supposed to hold it but I immediately moved it away from him. I took a deep breath and met Steven's dark eyes.
• "You left me after I claimed you," he said in a cold voice. "You think I'll just ignore that then?"
• My hair stood up when I heard it. My heart is pounding as everyone flashbacks to me over and over again. I love him so much and I want him to be mine, but we both know it can't be.
• "And, I just saw you with someone else," he added.
• My lips parted and my eyes widened. I didn't like the tone of his speech. It's like he's accusing me.
• "Steven..." I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a moment. "What do you want?"
• When I woke up, he was still looking at me like that. I can see his restraint.
• "Alright. You will stay with me tonight," he decided and grinned at me.
• My lips parted and I frowned at him.
• "We're over! You have no right to make decisions for me!" My voice trembled.
• He didn't listen to me and shook his head at me. He even put one of his hands on my palm with a fist.
• "Stay with me," he said softly.
• I stood up and pushed him hard. I don't know why he does it. He doesn't respect my decision. He doesn't respect what I want to happen.
• "Steven!" I'm almost begging.
• I put my palm to my mouth and closed my eyes.
• "Please... stop this. It's enough.." Tears fell from my eyes. "Stop..."
• I want him to stop me even though it hurts for me. I still can't accept to this day that he made me a fixture. I will suffer this for the rest of my life. He stood up and grabbed my arm which I immediately pulled away.
• "Baby..."
• "You keep hurting me!"
• I saw that he was stunned by what I said. I was crying in pain. The only thing I could hear in the whole room was his deep breathing and my whimpering.
• "I-It hurts so much, Steven!" I beat my chest with my fisted hand.
• "It hurts too much! Understand me too! Let's stop this! It's wrong, it's all wrong! It's wrong!" I shook my head and wiped the tears with my hand.
• Steven's face showed no reaction and he just kept looking at me.
• "Steven!" I said his name when he didn't speak. "Steven, let's stop this. I... s-saw your w-wife for the very first time."
• His jaw tightened again when I said that.
• "She's beautiful," I said bitterly. "People like him should be loved and above all brought to the altar..."
• I wiped my tears again.
• "Maybe it's not that hard to reciprocate his love, is it?" I will ask. "Y-You two agreed, didn't you?"
• I smiled bitterly when I saw his avoidance. "Even if you don't love him now, that doesn't mean you should fool him and pretend to be single."
• I looked up for a moment before continuing.
• "B-Because if I was in her p-position, I wouldn't be able to handle my husband loving and having sex with someone else."
• I covered my mouth to make no noise. I heard Steven sigh and step towards me. My eyes widened and I stepped back, a threat in my eyes.
• "Aren't you at least wondering why you passed out last night at the party?"
• He grinned at me and stopped walking. My eyes widened and almost lost color because of what he asked. I glared at him.
• "You animal!" I shouted punching his chest. "You're together!"
• He laughed as he grabbed my hand to stop me from punching. "What if you'll get pregnant?"
• I'm confused and worried. I don't want to get pregnant especially since this man is married. I withdrew my hand from him and stepped back.
• He shook his head at me. "You can't escape."
• "N-No.." I said shaking and holding my head.
• "How can you be so sure that you are not pregnant?" he asked with a smirk and grabbed my waist so violently that I fell against his hard chest.
• He caressed my wet cheek.
• "I know you didn't take your pills."
• I averted my face from him when he was about to kiss me. I was about to push him away when he suddenly grabbed my hand and held it tightly.
• "Don't worry, even my wife's hair, I didn't touch. She will remain unfuckable. Because I knew, even before, when she wasn't my wife, you were the woman I wanted to hug, kiss and possess again and again -again."
• I struggled in his grip. "Steven, I don't want to!"
• He let go of me and backed away when he screamed. She ruffled her own hair before facing me. I was surprised that his eyes were so red.
• "Why?" he shouted. "Why can't I have you?"
• His voice broke.
• I was silent.
• "Is it because I have a wife? I already told you that I will divorce him! Even if you are not in my life, even if you have not come into my life, I will still divorce my wife!"
• "Try to love her-"
• "Don't fucking dare!" he cut.
• My chest tightened when I saw tears in his eyes. No matter how he blinks, I can still see.
• "You thought you were the only one hurting?" he asked. "Yes, I admit that we did something wrong, but I didn't love my wife! No, because there's you in the very beginning! I admired you even before I married her!"
• His expression softened.
• "Please baby... let's fix this," he pleaded.
• "No!" I shook my head and looked at him. "No, Steven. You will fix your marriage with your wife while I..." I swallowed. "While me... please don't bother me anymore!"
• I put my hands together, begging him. He was about to answer me when his phone rang. We both turned to the center table where I saw her husband's name on her phone screen. It says Megan. He already gave it a name. I turned to Steven and saw that he was just staring there. I don't think he has any intention of answering his wife's call.
• I left him at the party. It's good and he's not the kind of person who makes a big deal out of everything. I'm a little sleep deprived because I'm still encoding my resignation letter. Yes, I have decided to leave this place. It's for everyone's good, so Steven won't bother me anymore.
• I want to forget him even though it's hard. I want him to love his wife and not leave her for someone like me. And hopefully when what I want happens, I hope I won't think about him anymore and forget him forever.