Chapter 112 Memories Of Us

I locked the door of my room. I don't want anyone else to come in because I want to be alone. I want to be alone and just cry all day. I don't want to go out. I do not want to eat. I am weak. My body and my heart are weakening, my whole being. I'm confused. I don’t know why it all led to this. If it's just a dream, I want to wake up. I don’t want to stay asleep if I keep moaning. But even if I slap myself, nothing still happens. I'm not dreaming. Not everything is a dream.
Neil really left me at the coffee shop, holding a cup of coffee, cold coffee.
He said that we are not for each other. He said we weren’t suited for each other. I can’t believe he said those things right in front of me. I couldn’t believe it was so easy for him to leave me. The more I didn’t believe what he said is... that he didn’t love me.