Chapter 6

• .....Our eyes met and I saw that look of passionate hatred burning in your eyes and that's the moment I understood, nothing is the same anymore...
• Evelyn POV:-
• I stood still as the cold droplets of water-drenched my petite form. I shivered at the coldness of the water. My heart was beating so fast. I put my hand over my chest to calm my anxious self. I was worried for nothing. I looked at the floor as a tear released itself followed by a stream of them. No matter how much of a great husband Lawrence is, I still can't give him the love and affection he deserves. I sniffed and wiped my tears.
• "Just be normal and act like Adrian is nothing but your Brother-In-Law."
• I scold myself for thinking about Adrian. I won't let this happen. I will think only about Lawrence and no one else. After spending quite a while in the shower, I wore the clothes Lawrence gave me. Unwanted convulsions emerge from my body when I realized that I am wearing Lawrence clothes and In Lawrence room and using his bathroom.
• Now my whole being is connected to him. Is marriage that powerful that it made you think about the person you never thought that way before? We both are bound to each other and gonna help each other. Somewhere in my heart, I want my marriage to work. Like, No woman wants her marriage to be annulled. I took a final deep breath and walked out with a flushed face. I have worn short before, So why I am getting nervous? Lawrence's Shirt was too long for me, it reached to my thighs almost hiding the boxer. It made me feel like I am wearing nothing but this shirt.
• "Lawrence..." My embarrassed form called him. He was sitting on the sofa. His coat was thrown on the other side his tie was also missing, his hairs were messy. He looked at me those Exquisite Green Eyes. He looked at me for a second and turned his head away. He stood up as my heart stopped for a second. He walked closer as I closed my eyes thinking he might be coming for me. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Lawrence walked past me and entering the bathroom. I sighed in relief when I heard the sound of the door being closed. I opened the closet and took out a hanger and hang my wedding dress. I arranged my jewellery as well. I went to the closet again and looked at Lawrence clothes. A black suit jacket with a black shirt and Red tie caught my eye. It was great. I was about to close the closet but then I heard a voice,
• "Are you alright with sharing the closet with me or do you want a closet of your own?" Lawrence said, I turned away and met his Emerald eyes. He was looking at me with a raised eyebrow. Water was dripping from his skin. He is getting so concern about every little thing.
• "Oh, Uh, I-I don't mind s-sharing the closet.." I stuttered. He looked at me with a bewildered expression and sighed,
• "Look, Evelyn, You don't have to be scared, I will never hurt you. I know you don't want it but you don't have to hide your feelings. Be the usual Evelyn, Everything is fine." Lawrence said reassuringly and I swear you can never find a husband as sweet as him. And that's the thing making me feel low that I can't love you like that.
• As for my feelings, This is the real me, I am shy. I looked away and said,
• "I am fine. It's just everything happened quickly. And I am my usual self." I said in a slightly angered tone. He laughed a little, "Okay, Whatever you say." He said as we both walked out. I walked to the bed and looked at Lawrence, even though the thought of sleeping with him made my very soul tremble.
• Lawrence runs his hand through his raven locks and sat on the sofa. He grabbed a blanket and was about to lay there.
• "Lawrence, You don't have to. The bed is big enough for both of us." I said. I don't want him to sleep on the sofa.
• "No, it alright. You sleep on the bed. I am fine here." He said with a smile.
• "But Lawrence, It uncomfortable to sleep there." I tried to reason him. He can't always sleep on the sofa.
• "Evelyn, Please try to understand. I don't want to..." Lawrence said trailing off. I have known Lawrence ever since my childhood. Even though he is a chivalrous man but he has a short temper and can easily lose himself to his desires. I nodded in agreement and let him sleep on the sofa. If he is saying that he knew that he might do something to me without my consent. That's why I agreed. I still remember that day when Lawrence called me urgently to his home.
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• I was getting ready to go to the Bayford Mansion. As usual, I was trying my best to look good so that Adrian might notice me but no avail. Lawrence called me urgently so I went there.
• I greeted everyone and went to Lawrence, he gave me a side hug and we went to the garden.
• "So? What is it?" I asked.
• "Look Evelyn you are a girl.", "No, I am a boy," I said pouting.
• "Look it's serious." He said a little seriously this time. I sighed as he continued, "You know that girl I am dating Hellen. I tried to take our relationship to an intimate level." My face lit up hearing that, "Really? What happened? Oh" I began to tease him.
• "That didn't happen." "Then?" I said tilting my head in confusion.
• "You know I can't control my anger and desires." I nodded. "Even though I have seen none of that. Neither your anger or you losing to desires." He looked at me with a frown and took a deep breath.
• "So, She didn't like it when.. You know... and left me." I gave him a shocked look. "Idiot! You're supposed to take things slowly. You have known her for what? Like 6 months!? Of course, she left you!" I yelled at him. He hung his head low. I sighed and began to say, "I have always seen you in your noble form so I don't know why she left you. And to be honest I don't even want to see you snapped."
• "That's the reason she dated me. But... I messed up. I just couldn't control my urges." I sighed and patted his back to cheer him up a little.
• "Come on forget it. Besides you are that handsome, anyone can easily agree to date you.." I said punching his arms playfully. He smiled and said, "But, I want her." I put my index finger under my chin and began to think of a way for him to make up with her.
• As I was thinking, My heart stopped for a second when Adrian entered the garden. I lost my words and turned my head away. It's been six months since he rejected me. I truly don't want to come but I have to due to Lawrence stupidity.
• "Okay then Lawrence, Try to say sorry in a romantic way." I waved at Lawrence.
• "But how?" He asked.
• "Think about it yourself. You can do it. You're such a chivalrous man!" I said and left. I didn't have enough courage to be where Adrian is. It broke my heart. It made me want to cry out loud. I couldn't stand where Adrian did and left both of them there.
• Later I found out that girl slapped Lawrence for what he did and told him to never show his face to her again. And from that day I truly don't want to see Lawrence's anger or Lust. Like if a person can slap Lawrence, I don't even want to think how lethal his anger or thirst can be.
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• I don't want Lawrence to do something to me because he's also gonna feel guilty about it. I know he can control neither his anger nor his desires. I gulped at the thought. He promised and if he promised, I knew he won't hurt me. I trust him. Lawrence Anger and Lust terrifies me as I have never seen it before. Maybe I should ask someone about it...
• Lawrence POV:-
• Evelyn is being really shy. She was never like this. She was looking so cute in my shirt. I felt like she is a precious gem. I am getting closer to her as if some strings are pulling me close to her. I want to wrap my arms around her and hug her tight. Mentally scolding myself for thinking like that about my wife. I stood up and left for the bathroom without even catching a glimpse of her. I walked out and saw her. She was looking pretty in an endearing way.
• Then I was going to sleep on the sofa but she stopped me and told me to sleep with her. No matter how much I want to, I still refused. I don't know what I'll do if I sleep with her. I don't want to hurt her in any way. I want to protect her from every harm not to be the one who harms her. She was already dear to me but I never thought about her in a romantically way. She is more like a partner to me and now when she is my wife I am feeling those strange sensations like Loving her, Caring her and all. In a sense, it's all right for me to think about these things but I don't think she is comfortable with me. None of us thought that we'll get married one day and like that too.
• But as long as she is my responsibility I'll take care of her and will love her.
• ..May our marriage last forever....