Chapter 8 The Realization

• His words lingered on my mind. Why deny the feelings?
• After we're back from the royal bath, he didn't leave my side not until I agreed to stay in hell with him. And I finally did, only after he assured me that I could leave anytime I wanted.
• Though honestly I was torn in half, my mind was telling me to go back up. But I also know that there was nothing for me there. I didn't have anything to go back to on earth, except long years of a solitary life until my dying days.
• But here my wolf was tortured, and he was getting more violent with every crawler's life he took. I got agitated more easily, yet every time Ranulf was in the room I calm down instantly in his arms.
• A couple of days went by when he told me that Shani was having issues with her elders. And that they were coming down to settle everything in hell.
• I know exactly why she would do that, she was protecting her mate. And she was risking her own life going back down to hell, and dealing with her elders.
• When the time came, I was standing next to Ranulf as we greeted them in the main hall. But I didn't expect, that they would bring another human down. Who is he?
• Arkael introduced him as Savaric, saying he was once cast down to hell also by Shani's elders. And that he had become the messenger between them and her elders, thus why he was there with them.
• My blood boiled instantly as he was roaming his eyes on Ranulf's bare chest, my jaw clenched seeing Ranulf looked pleased with himself. Savaric was not bad looking, he was actually easy on the eyes. Dark, tall, and handsome and annoyed me like hell.
• My wolf growled at me as if he was mocking my feelings towards the King.
• I decided to go to Shani and take her to Arkael's chamber, I just couldn't take it anymore. I needed to get myself out of there and leave them all behind.
• Moments later she was telling me about her elders, about how she needed my help with the ritual to contact her elders and communicate with them.
• "So, how's Ranulf been treating you?" she asked, while I help her with the preparation.
• "He's helping me a bit too much. I'm actually overwhelmed, my wolf hated him but I...he... God Shani, I can't seem to resist him. I've been struggling and I'm glad that you're here right now...." I was blurting out my words.
• It had only been a couple of days but he was coming in strong to me. Shani looked at me knowing that the same thing happened when Don was trying to get me to accept him as my mate.
• "... I couldn't believe that I was boiling when I saw that Savaric guy feasting his eyes on Ranulf..."
• I was busying myself with her stuff, but she obviously knows that I was struggling. And that was when Shani hugged me tight, knowing that I needed it. I could feel myself relaxed in her arms.
• "You're a good man Rain, I'm very certain that you will make the right decision. I know how Ranulf looked at you, and honestly, I just don't want you to get hurt."
• Yeah? but what if the universe decides to screw me for the second time.
• I chuckled nervously and smiled at her.
• "I know hurting me would be the last thing on his mind. But my wolf is fighting for his mate. He's still hurting badly and he still wants revenge. While I honestly am very tired, I just wanted everything to be done with...but then every time he's around I feel the need to survive... I really don't know, if I could make it once we're back on earth after my wolf has finished with his revenge."
• "Oh, Rain...I'm so sorry about Don. I couldn't even begin to imagine what it must've felt like..." she said hugging me again.
• "I'll manage, I will at least try..." I told her as I pull back, and asked her to prepare herself in opening communication with her elders.
• She nodded and start her ritual by laying everything down, and opening the book. She made the sacred circle around herself and was getting the black chalk to draw the seal onto the floor. Then she put the last element ingredient on the circle and took a seat in the middle.
• "Please don't let anyone in, I need to keep them from knowing where we are." She said as I was sent outside the room, but told me to go back in, once I had informed the others. She needed me as a backup, just in case, things go wrong.
• I was back in the main hall, they were still discussing Shani's situation. Savaric was still there. And my heart raced instantly, while Ranulf looked at me with a stoic face. I couldn't read his face so I just let it go, and carry on by saying what Shani said to me.
• "She's currently doing her thing and I need to go back to her, but please do not interrupt and come into the room until she stated that she's done."
• Arkael sighed and give me his approval, I could see that he was not liking it. But I do think he loves her too much to say no to her. Then I hurriedly excused myself to get back to her.
• But I was not expecting that she had drained her energy already, I cursed myself for not getting back to her sooner.
• I could see her elders were taking vague shadowy shapes inside her circle, they were still talking to her while her energy was getting lower.
• What the fuck is happening?
• "...Ah... your human was friend, what a sight. So you decide to keep your mate hidden from us? You know he can't help you. It has to be your mate."
• She was draining fast, they were right I couldn't help her.
• "Reach us again when he's by your side. We can't do this right now." One of her elders spoke and ended the communication.
• They were gone instantly, I quickly dispersed the summoning circle making sure that the connection was truly gone. Then I laid her on the bed, and at that exact moment, Arkael burst into the room.
• "Goddamn Shani, you can't do this on your own. You should know this by now..."
• He sounded upset but thanked me for being there for her. I looked at her and she nodded at me, telling me in silence that she was okay then I leave them to their privacy.
• I was back to the main hall to update Ranulf, and glad finding Savaric was nowhere to be seen. He was talking to Maven, one of the kingdom demon sorcerer.
• "Rain, come here, and please explain to us what exactly happened," Ranulf called me with his deep voice, making my body hummed.
• It wasn't long after when Arkael joined us in the middle of our conversation, saying that Muriel and Sabina were accompanying her.
• The discussion was getting technical, and I was feeling left out of the conversation. So I decided to go back to his room, I was wanting my own space but he wouldn't let me out of his reach.
• Shani was right, I also didn't understand what he wanted from me.
• But each time I was with my thoughts, the memory would come back. I need to keep myself busy, I need to exhaust myself.
• I sit on the edge of the bed, and suddenly feel the familiar sadness starting to drown me. I hugged myself when my heart was tearing itself apart again, I was suffocating, and I didn't hear him until his wings engulfed me.
• "Let it all out my Rain, I'm here. You will be just fine."
• I tensed as my wolf struggled to be free of him, but Ranulf was holding me tight until I shattered in his embrace.
• That night he holds me and kept on wrapping me in his arm until morning comes and another day had passed.
• "I don't know how long I can go on like this..."
• He was spooning me, my head rests on the crook of his arm. His other arm draped to my stomach pulling me close to him.
• "Rain..."
• "I'm tired, I need to keep myself busy. I need to bury my memory, I'm..."
• "Let me help you forget." His sexy voice resonated from behind me.
• "But I need more than your sexy time, I need to...oh fuck..."
• "All in good time my little wolf, for now, let me just take your mind off, and get you off."
• His hand slid inside my pants and reached between my legs, I could feel his hard dick pressed against my back. But he was stroking me sensually slow while trailing his kisses on my back.
• "Oh...my Ranulf, I...you should..." I moaned but was moving my hips feeling his hand.
• "...I can't...oh fuckkk...more... again..." cursing louder, my hand grasped the sheets needing to hold on to something.
• He wrapped my leg with his and spread my thigh wider, then he paced himself stroking me faster until I arched my back and make a mess on his hand.
• "Damn....that was...thank you..."
• "You are mine, I'm here for you. Not need to thank me, my love."
• Love? yeah okay... probably just a nickname...
• "It's not. And yes, I know what you're thinking." He said a bit too harshly.
• "Ranulf..."
• But he got up and leave me, making me cursed on the inside.